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CHAPTER THIRTY FOUR

-6 days-

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Tyler's POV

When I woke up, it was 4:09 am. Today was going to be our show at Pittsburgh, PA. I didn't really know how to feel. I'm so emotionally drained. This is bad to say, but I'm so depressed I'm not really excited for these shows anymore. I hate seeing the clique see me this way. It's obvious that I'm depressed.

Jaycee, Josh, Payton, and mark and Michael were all asleep. I got up quietly, and headed toward the bathroom. My stomach kept churning, and I eventually knelt down by the toilet, and threw up.

I made a gagging noise, and then flushed the toilet. I brushed my teeth after, and looked up in the mirror. My appearance has gotten worse. The bags under my eyes were very noticable, you can tell I lack so much sleep, my skin has gotten a little paler than before, and shit I was losing weight.

I shut the light in the bathroom off, and walked back toward my bunk. I noticed Jaycee wasn't in there, so I climbed back out and looked around. I noticed the tour bus door was opened a bit, and I walked out. I noticed Jaycee out there, crying and calling my name.

"Tyler?!" She yelled.

"Dammit, you better be okay!" Her voiced cracked as she wiped her eyes.

"I'm not playing games!!" She yelled louder, crying her eyes out.

She turned around, and noticed me standing in the doorway of the tour bus. She came bolting toward me, and she hugged my tight, super tight and she knocked me on the ground.

"Holy shit, you had me so fucking worried Tyler!" She said, crying into my chest.

"I'm okay." I lied, hugging her back and softly kssing her head.

"Where were you?" She sounded worried.

"In the bathroom." I said.

"Oh.." She said embarrassed, hiding her face.

"It's okay." I said removing her hands from her face, cupping her cheeks and kissing her.

We walked back inside the bus, and it was now 4:28 am. We climbed back in the bunk, and me and Jaycee cuddled, and she fell asleep.

Then I got unexpected company.

"Hi."

"What do you want?" I whispered.

"I want YOU to talk to ne.. It's the best for tonight, or any night. You're worthless and you know it."

I ignored him.

You can't ignore me.

"Blurry, go away!" I yelled.

"Shut the hell up! I'm the only person who can help you!" Blurry snapped.

He scared me. So much.

I felt a tear stream down my cheek.

"Is that all you can do? Cry?" He laughed.

"No." I said, squeezing Jaycee.

"What else can you do besides cry and cut yourself? Try to get rid of me?! I've been here for 12 years, I'm not leaving you, idiot."