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CHAPTER FORTY

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Tyler's POV

It was 6:07 am, and I've been awake ever since 2:30 am. I was staring at the ceiling, I wanted it to all end. I just wanted to let go, but I couldn't. I hated this hospital. Why did jaycee have to find me? I was doing something that had to be done. I didn't want live a life that only consisted of pain.

"Tyler, next time go somewhere far away." Blurry said in a angry tone.

I didn't speak. I wasn't in the mood for talking.

"Don't ignore me."

"Tyler! Dammit, don't ignore me!" He yelled

"Shut up!" I snapped.

"Tyler, stop. You're being even more foolish than usual. Why don't you just leave already? Nobody needs you here!"

"Leave me alone!" I plugged my ears and started to yell.

"Get a hint! I'm never leaving, I'm going to be here forever! There's nothing you can do about it. I'm you! How many times do I have to say it?!" He grew angrier.

I began to cry.

"Yeah, cry. That's all you're good at!" Blurry yelled.

"I hate you!" I yelled.

"I'm trying to help you tyler! Dammit, just listen to me!"

I got up from the hospital bed, and began to pull at my hair. He made me so angry at myself, I hated myself. I was nothing close to anything positive. There was nothing good about me. Everything about me was terrible.

I hit my fist on the wall, and felt myself get sadder and sadder. I walked back over to the hospital bed, and held my head in my hands.

Why was I this way?

Why was I so insecure?

Why was I so depressed?

Why was I so different?

I had so many questions, but I couldn't find the answers.

I let out loud sobs, and then I heard someone walk into my room. My vision was blurry from all my tears, but then I noticed who the blonde girl was right away.

It was Jenna.

I grew silent, and wiped under my eyes.

"H-hi." I said, holding back my tears.

"Hey, what's going on? Is everything alright?"

"Im fine." I lied.

"You were just crying Ty. What's going on?" She sat by me and hugged me.

"I'd rather not talk about it Jen." I sighed, hugging her back.

"I'm always here if you need anyone or anything."

"Thank you." I said, squeezing her as I hugged her. I truly did admire jenna, she was a beautiful girl with a great personality. But,wet ended things for a reason.