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CHAPTER FORTY FOUR

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Josh's POV

It was confusing. Tyler and Jaycee. They went on and off with eachother, their relationship was confusing. It kind of hurt my head.

I mean I know he's happy with her, but she won't be there to make him happy forever. She's made him sad before, and she would possibly do it again.

Yeah, I love jaycee as a friend. But, when she was with brendon without telling Tyler that really ticked me off. She's a great person, but holy hell.

I sat up from the couch, and walked over to the kitchen. I opened a cupboard, and grabbed a glass. I walked over to the sink, and got some water.

As soon as I took a swig of water, my phone buzzed in my pocket.

spOopY pay💗: hi joshy

drummer boi👽: hi.

spOopY pay💗: are you alright?

drummer boi👽: yeah, just a bit frustrated.

spOopY pay💗: why?

drummer boi👽: it doesn't matter,,, but you should come over since Tyler is busy and I miss you

spOopY pay💗: okok, I'm guessing Jayc is there ?

drummer boi👽: yes.

spOopY pay💗: alright. I'm on my way.

drummer boi👽: okay, I love you

spOopY pay💗: I love you too

I smiled down at my phone, and put it back in my pocket. She made me happy, and I wouldn't replace her or leave her for the world. She was worth every penny.

After I finished drinking my water, I placed my cup in the sink and walked toward my room. I walked inside and sat down on my bed.

Lately, I've been getting worse. I have more and more anxiety attacks, more and more panic attacks, and it's almost that time of year again. It's almost winter.

Seasonal Depression.

I've lost the motivation to do anything, it's been hard lately without my best friend. I want to be with him now, but I want him to be happy too; with jaycee.

Nothing else mattered to me. All I wanted was for my best friend to be happy, and I wanted the best for him. He deserved it, he's been in so much pain and sadness, he deserved to be happy.

"Hi," I heard someone say. I shot my head up, and noticed Payton standing there. I walked up to hrr and smiled. She looked as beautiful as always.

"Hey baby," I said as I wrapped my arms around her, planting a kiss on her forhead and then her lips.

"You looked deep into thought. Are you alright?" She asked, and her baby blue eyes looked up at me.

I sighed and looked at the ground.

"I'm fine," I pursed my lips together and looked at the floor. I didn't want her to worry about me, so I decided to keep my mouth shut.

"You're lying, your face is turning red. What's wrong joshy?" She furrowed her eyebrows together and walked toward me.