Didn't your mother tell you it's rude to stare?

of dairy products and suits

"Let me get this straight. You're asking me if I think you're falling for Matt? Shouldn't you be the one answering that?" Izzy stared at me from across the table with narrowed eyes. "I haven't even met the guy!" she exclaimed.

We were at our favorite cafe place. Matt had a class so I sought Izzy and thought about catching up. She laughed and told me she was glad to hear from me. It has been a long while since Izzy and I saw each other. Matt had practically moved into my schedule and penciled himself in in every available time. The more time I spent with him, the more I see the different sides of him. He can be serious one moment, funny the next. He can be infuriating and endearing at the same time when he wants to. I knew without a doubt that I will fall in love with Matt. The question was, should I?

"I can't trust myself when it comes to matters of the heart." I sipped on my mango smoothie. Biting on the straw. I was so anxious and the straw was the unfortunate victim of my stress. " I'm second guessing and doubting everything I'm feeling about Matt."

"Oh my god. for the millionth time...he's NOT bryan!!!" Izzy glared at me.

"I know that! It's just..it's just hard!" I threw my hands up and grabbed my hair in frustration. I thought I loved Bryan and we all know how that panned out for me. I just can't trust myself.

"Girl, the only thing that matters to me is if that YOU'RE happy." she laughed and raised an eyebrow. " Are you happy?" her tone was serious and grabbed my hand.

"I just feel that everything is going too fast. I just met him a little over a month ago. I just wanna be sure of what I am feeling. I know that I feel happy and inexplicably content when I'm with him and I keep thinking about him when we're not together." I tucked a piece of my hair behind my ear and bit my lip. " I want to him to be sure of his feelings, I mean, seriously, I have dairy products in my fridge that is older than this thing we have." I whispered to her.

Izzy stared at me for a moment and then burst out laughing. " Dairy?! really?!"

I started laughing too. I didn't know where that came from.

Izzy wiped the tears from her eyes and fixed her gaze on me. " Well, first off. what is this 'thing' between you anyway? define that first."

"I don't know. Dating?" I said. It sounded more like a question than a statement.

"Okay. exclusively dating right?" Izzy leaned forward, eyebrows raised.

I leaned back on my chair. "I suppose so...well..I mean, I haven't been seeing anyone and he knows that I like him." I shrugged. " I mean, I spend so much time with him, I have no other time for anybody else. Case in point, you." I pointed at her. "Wouldn't that also mean he wouldn't have time to see anybody else?"

"Yeah, You have a point. Getting time to see you is harder than asking to see the President." She grinned. "Besides, he did tell you he wanted you the moment he saw you." She widened her cheesy grin and wagged her eyebrows suggestively. " At least we know where he stands."

I blushed instantly and regretted why I even told her about Matt's confession. At the same time giving myself a pat on the back for NOT telling her about our first movie night wednesday kiss because she would not let me live that down.

"Jenna, if a guy told me that, I'd be putty in his hands. You gotta hand it to the guy. He's confident as fuck." Izzy took a sip of her chai latte. "Not to mention, he saw your ugly cry face already and didn't make a run for it. He gets brownie points for that." She laughed.