Owning The Game

comfy zone

You know the feeling when you don't want to do anything but curl up to a corner of your comfy zone in the dark and watch videos and movies all day?

A time when you have your tolerance levelling at zero?. If not in negatives?I bet most of the heart broken girls outside understand me right now. Cuz guys are dicks anyways.

I am curled up in a ball watching MI rogue nation. Some Hunt medicine always works. Ive rerevised all the MI movies since morning and will head to watching either Avengers or Percy Jackson again. Yup, I am weird like this. Never mind.

It's been a week since that incident and I am still not over it. I am definitely not furious anymore, but I am very much still hurt. I did not expect Nate to turn out this way.

What was he even thinking? Does he see me like his next 'conquest'? That thought killed me a million times already. Gah! Whatever.

It's just Ethan and me right now. Honestly,tom cruise never falls out of charm. Smarty pants turn me on more than cocky bastards.

The girls went to school including Clarr. I dint wanna go today. It's already Friday, and I dint wanna go. This is the first time when Clarr went to school without me. Thank God she left me alone.

Maybe she finally understood I need some 'me' time. Wish my life could always be like this, popcorn in hand, Hunt on screen and loads of free time to nap. My life is pretty much perfect except for the douche of a crush I have.

I was done watching all the movies so I decided to call mom.

I facetimed her.

"Hey momma!"

"Hey honey, dint go to school today?"

"Dint feel like going mom."

"Are you okay Hun? It's been a while we met. We've decided to stay with you for a month after coming back from London." She said instantly making me beam. I missed her soo much.

"That would be great mum!" I squealed.

"Okay now tell me what's wrong young lady? I know my daughter well. She ain't the one to sit home and eat popcorn watching Netflix unless there's something wrong."

"How did you know I was watching Netflix and having popcorn?"I asmed her dumbfounded.

"I have eyes you know? There is a popcorn bowl on the table and Netflix is still on.. I can see it through the screen." She said rolling her eyes.

I miss my mom too much. I know what you're thinking. Eighteen but still a moma's kid? Lemme tell you. No matter how old I get I will always stay attached to my parents like a five year old. Yea, thats me.

I told her everything. Every small detail of my feelings and how I feel Nate toyed with em.

"Look honey I will be there in a couple of days. We will deal with the Nate boy together. Maybe he is confused about his emotions? Give him sometime and yourself too. I want you to focus on your education now. The boy shit is for later Hun. Your exams are coming soon." She said sternly but still smiling.

She knows she doesn't have to get worried for my grades. And I also know she's just saying it to divert me from being an emotional chaos.

"The Williams are really sweet people Ness. Maybe you guys just have some misunderstandings honey. Just talk to him and make things clear. You will atleast know where you stand for him. Trust me, you will feel loads better after putting it out. No matter what the outcome be. You will be hurt but yet relieved if you get rejected. But if he likes you back, you would be glad you did it. But non the less, whatever the outcome is, you will have no regret of not trying in the future."

"Look at yourself Hun! You've got my beauty after all. Who can say no to this? Well unless they are out of their minds." She said winking and making me smile.

"Kay mom, see you soon." I said cutting the call. Maybe I should talk to him? But I decided against it when the memory of our previous 'talk' hit me. He dint even have a good explanation.

The least I want to do is break my already broken heart. So I just stayed home all day watching Netflix and singing Taylor swift. I think I will indeed get a puppy.

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