Ed Sheeran Imagines ♥

Love Letters

I sat behind my desk, bent over a blank sheet of paper. It has been one week now since Ed and I moved in together. Of course, moving in with the love of my life was the best thing ever. But there wasn't only happiness inside me.

There also was fear, mostly of the future. I wanted to tell Ed about my feelings and worries but I just didn't know how. So I decided to write him a letter instead and hide it somewhere for him. Yes, I was even to shy to give it to him myself. But I really needed to get those things off my chest or else I'd suffocate.
But after one hour of starring down at the white sheet, I slowly started to become desperate. I just didn't find the right words. I groaned in frustration and pushed my chair back. I would do it later.

I could use a cuddle buddy right now. I made my way down to the living room, but before I could open the door I heard Ed's voice saying my name. I stopped with my hand on the door knob. He was talking to someone, probably on the phone. I knew that shouldn't listen but I was too curious now.

"Yeah the house is really nice, mum. I'm so happy that she said yes to moving in!" So he was talking to his mother. "We still need to go shopping but once we have everything together it'll be perfect. I'm happy. I love her so much, mum." I smiled to myself, his words warming me from inside. And suddenly, out of the blue, I knew what to tell him in my letter. I hurried back upstairs and eagerly grabbed my pen, once I sat down. Then I started writing:

Dear Teddy,

I don't even know if you will ever find this letter, but I decided to write it because I just don't know how to tell you what has been going on in my mind lately.
First of all, moving in with you was the best idea ever. Now I can have you around me all day long, which is quite amazing ♥. But I also have to admit that I'm worried about the future. Remember when you told me that your biggest wish is to start our own little family with at least two kids? Well, I want to have cute ginger children, too, but I don't know if I'm ready for that. I'm scared of not being able to raise them and of being a bad mother. I'm afraid of not being perfect for them. And with you going on tour all the time, I will be alone with them a lot and don't know if I can do this alone. You can't bring all of us on tour with you but I also don't want them to see their father only a few times a year. BUT I also don't want to keep you from making music! It's complicated and maybe I'm thinking too much but I hope you understand what I actually wanted to tell you. You are the only one who understands my weirdness and I can't thank you enough for that. I can't wait to see what the future holds for us, even if I'm freaking scared. But the thought of having you by my side, is keeping me sane. I love you and I can't imagine life without you. Please don't ever leave me, Teddy.

Forever,
your Wonderland ♥

After re-reading the letter and putting it into an envelope I decided to hide it behind a picture of Ed and me, that his mum took while we've been asleep on the sofa. I suddenly heard Ed's footsteps approaching the room and quickly turned around, pretending to make the bed.

"Hey, Darling, what are you doing?" he asked in a cheerful tone.
I smiled at him and gave him a kiss on the cheek.

"Nothing, just cleaning up a bit"

------------8 years later-----------

"Mummy, Mummy can I change the picture please?" my little daughter pleaded with puppy eyes while tugging on my skirt.

"Of course, Sweetie," I laughed and handed the frame over to her. A picture of Ed and me sleeping on the sofa in his parent's living room. Today, we wanted to change it and put a family picture inside instead.

"Mommy!" Lilly suddenly cried. "Look, what I've found behind the picture! Your name is written on it!" Lilly held up a piece of paper. I frowned and took it from her. After unfolding it and reading the first few lines I gasped. It was a letter. From Ed to me.
"Oh my god," I whispered. He's found the one I've written for him so many years ago and he wrote an answer.

"Mummy, what is it?" Lilly whined, not amused with being ignored.

"Honey, I think Daddy told me that he got some ice cream for you. You should go downstairs and ask him or else he's gonna eat it all on his own, " I told her. Her pout immediately disappeared and she excitedly rushed out of the room. I sat down on the bed, with the letter in my shaking hands and I started to read:

Alice my Love,

You can't imagine how surprised I was after I've found your letter. After reading it, I immediately wanted to tell you that I've found it. But instead, I decided to write back. It just feels right. So, where do I start? Oh yes...
HOW CAN YOU SAY YOU'RE GOING TO BE A BAD MOTHER???? You're going to be the best mum ever! Seriously, you're the most wonderful person on earth, Alice. Please, don't ever think that you're not perfect enough for our kids. Speaking of kids: I noticed that you wrote this letter two years ago. And look at us now! You're pregnant and we're going to be parents in less than two months! Isn't this just amazing, wonderful, perfect? I can't wait until she's here. But let's be serious now. You're right, it won't be easy, it certainly won't. Touring will make it difficult but please don't worry. I'll always be there for you and our daughter. Whenever you need me, just call me and I'll be there as soon as I can. I'm actually going to take a break to support you after the birth.I won't stop making music. I can't stop. But I promise you to always be there if you need me. Maybe I can bring you two on tour with me for a little while. I'm sure Lilly would be excited to go! What I actually wanted to say is that you don't have to worry about the future. We'll sort everything out and it's going to be wonderful. You are the weirdest and most beautiful person that I've ever met in my whole life. I love you to the moon and back and I'll always stay right there by your side. You'll always be my Wonderland.

Forever,
Your Teddy ♥

I had tears in my eyes. I couldn't believe that he'd found my letter and wrote back. Suddenly I felt a hand on my shoulder. "Honey, are you alright?" I heard Ed's gentle voice. I threw my arms around him.
"Thank you for writing back and being so wonderful and perfect," I whispered.

He rubbed my back and kissed my cheek. "You're welcome, Darling."

Wow this was long. @martycapa01 I hope I didn't ruin your wonderful idea I gave my best ♥