No girls allowed (Jaeyong)

70. Math class

"You did what?" Doyoung opened his eyes wider than ever.

It was 6 a.m. and they were sitting in Taeil's bedroom, all three of them while Jae was playing with his blanket. He knew they will find out anyway besides he needed someone to talk and he trusted them enough to share his secret.

"So it's just me and Sicheng left," Doyoung jumped from the carpet he was sitting at.

Taeil stayed quiet he was watching Jae's face carefully.

"But it wasn't how you wanted it to be?" he said finally.

"No," Jae shook his head becoming red.

"Is Taeyong rough or brutal, or... too small?" Doyoung coughed.

"That's not delicate to ask stuff like that," opposed Taeil. "Of course he's not, he loves Jae and he was always gentle to him, it's just they weren't very close lately and Jae hasn't forgiven him yet so it was a desperate act between love and hate," explained the boy.

"Sounds like you've been there," Doyoung raised his brows.

"Oh it's just, he looks like this, I try to fell into his situation," Taeil became red. "Besides I did it a few times and you didn't so I can relate to the experience."

"Wow now you'll turn into a bunch of Yutas and start to bush me each day for being a virgin," Doyoung was upset.

"Of course no, just let Jae talk," Taeil tried to calm him down.

"Ok," Doyoung returned to the floor but his face was cloudy.

All eyes in the room turned to Jae and he felt really uncomfortable.

"I..." he started and stopped.

"It's ok we're here to listen," assured Taeil and Doyoung rolled his eyes.

"A scientific study says 80% of teenagers aren't happy with their first time..." Doyoung shut up when Taeil sent him a killer glance. "And I don't want to be in this 80 % like you two," the redhead continued and Jae giggled.

"Oh can you keep quiet!" shouted Taeil and Jae rolled over the bed from laughter.

He sat back and saw two expecting glances so his smile fell.

"I... was mad at him... I still am,"he muttered.

"I knew it!" shouted Taeil and covered his mouth with his hands.

"And who is overreacting now?" muttered Doyoung.

"So it was painful, a lot and I feel stfange in my own skin. He was nice to me but a little hafsh as we did it fathef quickly and without being pfepafed. But it felt bettef when we did it than aftef, then it became vefy uncomfoftable," Jae lowered his head.

"Why?" asked Doyoung.

"I don't know... it's just, we haven't talked fof so long and it still hufts to think how he just left me hefe dufing the wofst night of my life," Jae felt it's harder for him to talk. "And it's such a diffefent feeling inside, and now I know him in this way and it's embaffassing being afound him," Jae tried to explain the best possible way.

"It will go away, the uncomfortable feeling around him, you just need to spend time and discover you still can have fun and talk about everything, it's like with kissing, after the first kiss you want to hide in a deep hole and never look into the person's eyes again but after the hundredth you just love it and want more," muttered Taeil.

"Mr. Expert," Doyoung couldn't hide the sarcasm.

"I know, but... we neafly afgued when he made bfeakfast fof me and he cfied a lot, it was vefy uncomfoftable," said Jae.