All For You

55

Ameenah

I've been wondering what Clyde meant when he said he forgets to take his medication. When I asked him, he told me he had to go and when I tried calling he sent me to voicemail. I was currently back at school sitting in the counselors office. The school thought I might need counseling sessions after the events that have happened in my life.

"So how have you been feeling?" Mrs.Norman, my counselor asked as I sat in front of her desk.

"Fine" I answered not really wanting to be in there. I wasn't the kind to talk about my problems to every and anybody.

"How are you taking things, you're back in school after missing a few weeks and one of your classmates that you were close with is still hospitalized"

"Im just going through life and all that things that come with it" I shrugged.

"You don't have to speak to me but I'm only trying to help you. I won't force you to speak but my door is always open if you feel like you're not ready" she smiled.

"So I can go?" I asked grabbing my bag.

"Well no, its mandatory that you stay for a certain amount of time, any time after that is completely up to you" she said making me sigh and drop my bag back down. This was going to be a long day.

"Are you even listening?" I asked Clyde as we sat at the lunch table together. He was still acting stand off-ish with me and I understood why but if we were sitting together, he shouldn't be ignoring me.

"I hear you yo" he said typing away on his phone.

"Yeah but I've been talking and you haven't said anything"

"You happy now?" He said putting his phone down and looking at me.

"I'm sorry for what I did Clyde but if you say you forgive me then stop acting like that" I frowned.

"I said I'm listening now you making me mad saying extra shit" he blew a breath looking annoyed.

"You asked me about something and I'm answering but I feel like I'm talking to myself" I explained.

"You the one that did some hoe shit and you finding problems with me" he shrugged.

"Because you fucking annoying me. I know I fucked up and I feel bad I'm not gonna let you keep making me feel bad about" I snapped. I made sure to keep my voice low because people at the other tables were looking.

"Clearly your ass is feeling guilty because I didn't bring that shit up"

"Yeah but your attitude has changed"

"Okay you expect me to be smiling in your face while the thought of what you did is running through my mind."

"We're not together" I defended my self.

"Yeah you not my girl but we was talking heavy to a point where I wasn't looking at no other female. I let your ass know how I felt and you went and did that shit. If he wouldn't have said shit, would you have told me?" he asked making me look down. He got up and walked away from the table making me roll my eyes. I wasn't chasing after no nigga.

My phone pinged in my pocket making me pull it out and see a text from Aaleeyah. I sent her a text this morning and she was just now replying. I know she was still out of it from the entire situation with Dontavian. Even though the doctors were saying his chances at slim, I feel like he's going to pull through.