You know what I just want to say that I am a fucking jealous bitch... but see there's a difference because I don't actually do anything to stop the jealously I kind of just let it manifester in my mind... but the problem with that is that I start to question everything about myself like why can't I be like this person and why are they getting the attention from that person more than I am. Like I am I not good enough to hang out with or give attention too or I even question if it would of just been better if I just would of not been here at all.
The thing is... I like this person... ok... sounds good... now I thought they liked me back... so I hung out with them... and I texted them a lot... and even got hugs... BUT this girl came along... and kind of fucked things up... like this person is now doing the same thing that they do with me to this person... and now I guess I learned that... they must not like me anymore... cause they are giving the same treatment to the other person... I thought you would give that type of treatment to only people you like but I guess not huh... but I was just jealous of this person because they can try so effortlessly to get someone... while someone like me is struggled to even to get noticed.
But would anything really change if I was gone... would this person even miss me... WOULD ANYONE CARE?
no. because I am a jealous bitch
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Thoughts...
Non-FictionThese are some thoughts that I have and I am too scared to tell so I write them.
