Thoughts...

Think about this...

Think about this...
All the decisions we made in the past led to this moment in time...
Sure maybe that decision changed everything but sometimes change is good.
I think... what if I would have never told my crush that I liked her last year...
I would still be friends with her and maybe if I was then I would have never seen the rest of the people's true colors. Cause once I left that group and got rejected out... they all soon showed there true colors of hatred. Her best friend hated me cause she thought I was taking her away from her... but after I told her then the best friend I guess felt pity and started to not hate me... but the rest of the group. One told me they hated me for no reason and then I think got other people to hate me too. One girl literally gave me the death stare when I walked by.
It was good that I told you.
I made so many friends out of the deal.
Let's start from the beginning shall we...
If I was still friends with you... I would have never gotten a crush on someone again... literally we bonded over having crushes on the same sex and telling them near the last day and having it be our firsts too. This was the summer I also wrote a song about you so yeah now I got a new song.
If I was still friends with you... I wouldn't of made my best friend in the world, Dan. Like the reason we got close was because we both were betrayed by your friend group so we had to team up. That's when we both share our passions with each other and make eachothers life better in so many ways... she was also the cause to something else which I will get to.
If I was still friends with you... I wouldn't have saw everyone's colors cause this is where drama started to happen near the end of the year.
If I was still friends with you... I wouldn't have been friends with all these 7th graders... like they call me mother goose for god sake and that would have never been a thing if I spent all of band with you. Plus I learned about gaming and like that's pretty cool.
If I was still friends with you... I also would have never meet or even befriend my main dude, Chedgar. We best bros now and it's awesome we talk about everything. He's a way better friend then you ever were. I meet him in band also so boom.
If I was still friends with you... I wouldn't be friends with Axel. Like I meet him in SUN and we were in the same SUN class together and instead of sitting alone by Axel. I would have sat with you guys. Plus if I wasn't friends with Axel then who was I going to see Beauty and the Beast with like seriously. Plus... for my birthday party I think he got me the best gift... deadass. Like it was so perfect. All the things that I told him he remembered and bought. He got me a TØP cd cause I said I liked them, then got be a Toblerone bar cause I said I never had one, then a Ghostbusters action figure cause I dressed up as one for Halloween, and an inspirational poster cause I always went to him for my depression. Like dude this is me... and he remembered all that shit about me. Damn.
If I was still friends with you... I would have never had my first boyfriend... deadass. Now here's where Dan comes into play. Dan and the boy that shall not be named, were talking and he said I should try out for baseball manager. I would have never even meet him if it wasn't for Dan. He wouldn't have even told me there was something if we haven't hung out before and talked about baseball. I would have never know their was an opening or anything like that and if I was still friends with you I would have just gone for softball. I meet my first boyfriend and fell for him at baseball practice so if I never went to that practice then I would have never fell for him... which means if I never fell for him then I wouldn't know what I DONT want in a guy. (This is a whole nother topic I will get to in another story)
So see you did have a huge impact on me...
Whether you were in my life or not.
Thanks... for never being here cause I turned out great. 😊👌