Thoughts...

Bad can turn into good.

This has been a very bad week... but today it's gotten better.
Not that of the election that happened (whole nother story) but also the personal stuff in my life. So on Sunday I told my crush I liked them... they didn't like me back. So then Monday comes and no one talks to me at all even the people that I talk to everyday. Tuesday I ask a friend if they hate me and they said yes so I asked why and they said reasons and I said like what and they just kept on saying reasons. So I just left that cause clearly they weren't going to tell me why they hate me. So as in my best friend wasn't talking to me ether... I just felt like I was doing something wrong or I was just not a better of a friend as to know but we were best friends... and anyways I saw her texting people and hanging out with other people so in response I just hung out with another friend I had, that was Wednesday. So then afterschool I asked again what was wrong and she finally told me... I was happy but then again not because she finally told me what was happening in her life but then again the thing in her life was bad so I just felt bad for my friend was hurting. But also thru out the week nothing went my way. I was dropping things and falling and just having the badest of luck but also I just got trapled with homework. But then again I left the homework last minute so I had to do it all Monday for I wasn't there Friday cause I was sick and I am also still sick tbh. There was also just like triggering moments where I just started crying because before someone moved away I was focusing my attention on them but when they left I had to focus on someone else and that someone else was Her.

Thursday finally came around and everything just brightened up. Instead of being rammed in the hallway but stupid ass boys and being constantly stopped when someone wants to hug, it was so peaceful. Then with the friend that hates me I guess that changed or she could just be faking but she was laughing and talking to me. As of my best friend we had awesome times cause now I feel like we can tell each other everything... right? But also afterschool we just listened to TØP as she was doing "homework" but we just laughed and a very weird confertation happened in front of us cause different people we know actually are ex's which was just so weird and they started fighting in front of us. As in the crushes yeah they still don't like me back but when you are around good people you completely forget about that.

Lesson of the week:
Be around people that make you happy cause you can forget your problems. But also just don't procrastinate cause I had to do homework for 6 hours to finish it all... and that was only for one class.
Until tomorrow... stay safe... stay happy.
-Ash