Thoughts...

I AM EMOTIONALLY DRAINED.

A LOT HAPPENED TODAY...

I AM EMOTIONALLY DRAINED.

So the first thing that just made me cry was that Dan and Phil just uploaded their documentary and guess what I couldn't watch it cause I didn't have YouTube Red so my day was already off to a bad start. So now I had to go to the bus stop so I could go to school but the bus never came so my friends and I start walking to school. The school is like many miles away and I don't do physical activity and also I was wearing a huge ass sweater with thermal boots. So I am dying from the work and sun and guess who comes by... THE FUCKING BUS. When we were halfway to school the bus picked us up and took us the other half of the way and I was like dead so I decided to take a nap on the bus but NO. The bus driver slammed on the breaks causing me to hit the floor with a thud. So I am on the floor of the bus physically drained and we are now at school so I get up and hit my head on the air conditioner of the bus. Like not hitting the floor of the bus was humiliating enough. OK so I missed 2nd period and that was when I was supposed to take my test and I studies for this test all night and now I have to take it tomorrow. OK so you think this is the end of the story... it's not there is a lot more after this.

Disclaimer- I like a lot of people LIKE ALOT so its not really a big deal if I have many crushes at the same time and today I had three and something happened to all three of them TODAY

Ok so the first crush is a guy that is a grade above me so I shouldn't even like him now but he is in high school and we would always talk about him coming and saying hi to us cause we haven't seen him since he was in 8th grade so I had a dream about him and it went like this: He secretly walked into the band room and sat in my chair but I didn't notice at all until I went to get something from my backpack and saw him so I scream his name and jumped in his lap engulfing him in a huge hug. Everyone turned to look at us and I could feel the judgement and jealous eyes but I kind of liked it. So I release from the hug and ask what he was doing here and I was like still in shock. I look at his face and I see that it is horrified as he looks around the room like stop looking at me. So that was the end of the dream and it's really weird but whatever I continue on the day. What is really weird is that when I was typing this he sent me a text and we haven't liked talked all month which is so weird. The one dream I have of him is the same day that he finally texts me.

Next up is this crush that I probably shouldn't have a crush on and we are like pretty close and idk he just makes me so happy and in class today we were going some sort of fighting thing with our arms and he ended up putting his arm around my neck like a boyfriend would do and I just let it stayed there until he took it down to remain the fighting thing. We were just fighting about who was taller and was using each other shoulders to stretch farther then them.

So this last one isn't as good as the first two it's actually pretty depressing... so it's about this girl and we all know the story by now. So it's 6 and 7th period and she sits two seats ahead of me and at the end of the day everyone gets out there seats and can sit or stand anywhere. So one of my friends decides to lay on her and I don't know why this fucked me up so bad since they always did it. It just made me remember all the times I had with her and how I use to lay on her like that and I probably could still do that if I just wouldn't have told her but I did. So I just started to cry and I guess I just got really depressed after that.

To keep the bad news going I was just informed that my OTP ship was just broken up and he dumped her threw gmail and that's awful and I was so mad at him for that but also so sad for her cause she really did like him alot but also my bestfriend and her boyfriend broke up over the weekend but that wasn't today and only knowing about the OTP break up today

So to top this horrific sundae of badness I had a bright red cherry in my pants... YES I STARTED MY MOTHER FUCKING PERIOD TODAY