All That Matters

Chapter 35

(Just an update on the characters!

James is Jamie Campbell Bower

Carly is Cher Lloyd

Belle is Danielle Campbell *except Belle has teal hair*

Tanner is Garrett Clayton

And Josh is Max Irons

Also, I don't know how many of you have read After by Imaginator1d *if you haven't I strongly suggest it😍* but before each chapter she lists the songs she listened to while writing! I really like that idea so I might try that too😊)

Harry's pov:

Did she actually mean it? Does she still like me? I hate having to think this through. I hate not being with her. I hate needing her. I just hate how much I love her.

Love her?

No, that's crazy. I don't love her. I've never loved anyone. Ever.

I'm overthinking this. I just need to talk things out with her; that's all. Hopefully this time we can get through a conversation without a fight or her running off like last time- although last time started out quite nicely.

Okay, I can just call her up and talk things out with her. I can explain the reasoning for everything that I did. But something is holding me back. The thought of her shutting me down is one thing, but another thing is... what happens if I do tell her and she hates me for what I did to James's girlfriend? What if she is so disgusted by me that she just leaves without giving me a second thought? I know she can do better then me. A tattooed bad boy that looks too intimidating to talk to. She needs someone more like Louis, someone who's more quiet and won't keep secrets from her. Someone who won't put her in danger just by being seen with him.

Every time James or one of the other gang members sees Darsey with me, they come up with a new way to use her to get back at me.

I'm overthinking this again. Just one call.

Darsey's pov:

I check my phone for the hundredth time to see no texts or calls. I keep telling myself that I'm waiting to hear from Louis but I know that I'm longing for Harry's name to light up on the screen. But it hasn't.

Maybe he is playing me. Maybe this whole thing has been him lying to me and just using me for entertainment- and I keep falling for it. If only I could just shut him out of my mind...

I turn off my phone to stop myself from checking it constantly and go across the street to Liam's house, hoping he can help me sort things out. I knock on the door softly before taking a step back, looking up at the evening sky. Seconds later the door opens to show Liam standing there dressed nicely.

"Hi," he smiles, his eyes lighting up.

"Sorry, are you going somewhere?" I ask.

"No, not for a few hours. And I thought you're coming, too?" He says after inviting me inside.

"Coming where?"

"To the party."

"What party?"

"I think it's Carly's," Liam says, referring to the girl I had spoken with the other day when Zayn and I went to lunch.

"Well I wasn't invited." I say.

"Niall said he'd call you a few minutes ago," he says confusingly.

"Oh, I turned off my phone." I answer slowly.

"Why?" he asks, taking a seat at the counter and motioning for me to as well.

"Well," I start off. "You know how you kind of found me kissing Harry a few days ago?"

He nods as I take a seat, his brown eyes and soft smile soothing my tense nerves.

"I haven't talked to him since then and I guess that I'm kind of going crazy waiting for him to call me." I say honestly. I expect him to call me crazy like anyone would but he just softly smiles.

"You're doubting that he likes you, aren't you?" he asks. I nod after a small pause before explaining all my thoughts; explaining how I think he's playing me and that I'm pretty sure I'm just his temporary use of entertainment before he finds another slut to mess with.

"Darsey, you are absolutely insane." He concludes when I finish speaking. "First of all, you're not a slut- far from it. Second of all, Harry really likes you. Like, a lot. I'm not over exaggerating when I say this. After you left the other day he spent hours pacing the patio asking us if you really liked him. He finds it hard to believe that you'd ever date him because he thinks he doesn't deserve you. "

What?

"And yes, he does have his secrets that he doesn't tell anyone about; but I'm thinking that he's not telling you to keep you safe. I'm not entirely sure who he's been mixed up with in the past but I know it wasn't good." Liam's words come as a complete shock. I can't imagine why Harry would think he doesn't deserve me. I'm just a stubborn girl that doubts everything.

"Do you think his past could be affecting... us?" I ask, although I know the answer.

Liam nods, rubbing the back of his neck and sighing. "I know that he did something wrong to a guys girlfriend and now he hates him for it but that's about it." he says.

"Yeah, that's all that I know, too." I huff.

After a little while of discussing the possibilities, Liam checks his phone and stands up.

"Well then, will you be coming to the party?" he asks. I shrug uneasily and he takes me by the hand. " You need to get out of the house before you go crazy, love." Liam says with a teasing smile. I laugh and give in.

"Go get dressed and come back over in about fifteen minutes. We can go together." He smiles and I nod before walking out his front door and starting towards my house again. I rush inside and change into a black sleeveless dress that I had recently bought when Niall and I went shopping. It went just above my knee and had a sweetheart neckline; but it was slightly boring. I added a necklace that Louis had given me a while back and smile in the mirror at the memories it brought back. When everything was simple.

I quickly fixed up my long brown hair up into a bun and reapply make up before hurrying back over to Liam's. When he opens the door his eyes go wide and his jaw drops.

"Darsey, you look amazing," he compliments me.

"Thanks," I smile, not expecting his pleasant reaction. We go through his house to his garage and get in his car. He texts Niall for directions and starts it up. As we pull out of the driveway a thought crosses my mind. Is Harry going to be there? Most likely, I guess; he and Carly are supposedly good friends but I don't know. I feel my stomach ignite with butterflies at the thought of seeing him. Most of my fears and doubts have been settled by Liam but I'm still nervous to talk to him. As I continue to get deeper and deeper into my thoughts, Liam speaks up as if reading my mind.

"Harry's going to be there,"

(I wrote this a little quick so I'll go through it again tomorrow but I wanted to update for you guys because I might not be able to for a few days! As always, I'd love it if you'd comment your thoughts, questions, or theories:) thanks for reading and I love you all💛 xx)