Pizza Boy ★ joshler {completed}

Chapter 23- leave

Josh's eyes go wide when I say the name.

Alex.

All that's running through my mind is "who the fuck is Alex"

"I-uhhh-uh I." Josh stumbles.

"Yeah yeah uhhh-uhhh," I mock, "who the fuck is he?!" I begin to yell.

"Tyler..." josh says sliding his arm up and down my arm telling me to calm down without saying a word.

I push his arm off and repeat, "who the hell is alex?" Before josh could say anything I sit up and go on, "Oh I get it after our 'incident' you moved on, that I can understand, what I don't fucking understand is last night and what it fucking meant to you considering you kissed me more than once and you have yourself a boyfriend?!"

"Tyler let me explain."

"Get out." I say.

"Ty-" josh begins to tear up.

"Get. The fuck. Out...Are you deaf?! Get out!" I motion to the door beginning to cry on my own.

I hear josh open the door, but I don't look up, and then after a few moments. I hear it close. I think I might've heard a faint 'tyler' before the door closed.

I cry until it burns, I feel my life falling apart.

I can't believe I actually thought he would take me back after two months without magically finding someone else.

I look over to my side to see a familiar blue-haired boy's jacket. Filled with memories of when I would wear it or when he would put it on me when I was cold.

I roll over to grab it, breathing it in before I walk out in the pouring rain to give it back.

I peek out my window, the soft fabric jacket in my hands, seeing josh sitting on my steps in the rain possibly crying.

I creak open my front door, opening it loud enough for josh to hear but to not turn around.

I sit down next to him, "Here." I say handing him the jacket.

"Thanks." He says, voice still hoarse from crying.

"I just-why did last night happen when you know what I'm going through and I'm all vulnerable?" I ask slightly in a rather angry tone.

"I don't know I missed you so much and I forgot about Alex the whole night."

"So just, who is he?" I ask still in a tone of anger.

"Well I met him a few weeks after our 'incident' and we just hit it off I guess."

I sigh.

"Wow. You really like him don't you?"

Josh hesitates before he nods.

"I see..."

"Tyler I 'like' Alex I don't think I love him I mean we're barely even dating. But Tyler, I promise you that I am way in love with you and I meant everything I said last night." Josh says as he holds my hands.

I stand up, "josh it just doesn't work like that! You can't just play with someone else's feelings, because what if they actually care about you! Maybe even love you! I don't know who Alex is but I'm sure he loves you, maybe not as much as I do, but you are in a relationship with him and you can't just do that to him! You know who would do something like this josh? Ryan. Do you really want to be like that asshole? Huh? Do you?"

Josh shakes his head.

"Then just leave me alone Josh. Go back to Alex and make him happy, it's not gonna be hard for you to forget about me i promise."

"Tyler, please" I can hear the hurt in Josh's voice, "I can't live without you."

"I don't think I can either josh. But I'm not gonna force you to break up with someone else you love, to be with me. As much as I love you, I've learned over these past few months that I should put other people before me. Even if I don't even know them."

"Tyle-"

"Goodbye josh."

He leans in for a hug, but I stop him and just lightly kiss him on his forehead.

I can hear him choking on a breath, almost not able to breath. He's crying so hard.

I've never seen anyone with this much pain.

I wipe off the tears that dried on my face and walk back inside.

I look for my phone and forget that it's in my bedroom. I walk to get it and i reach to grab it on the bed.

I open it to see a text from josh.

"Thank you Tyler Joseph."

The tears flow down my face and I lose it. I fall on my bed and crawl up into a ball. I cry hard enough to actually feel physical pain. As each choked tear comes out I feel my stomach contorting into a knot in my stomach. The feeling of a migraine coming on as each second passes by. I miss josh, I miss the feeling.

Alex better appreciate him. Love him as I did. Or I will come for him.

I cry and cry harder each and every time.

I've been in this situation too many times already.

I hear my door unlock, most likely Brendon checking on me.

I try to stop crying so Brendon doesn't have to see me like this. Not that he hasn't before, but still.

I try to stop but I can't. I can't stop crying. I can't stop the feeling that is this type of sadness that I've felt too many times.

"Hey Brendon the food is just in the fridge." I say my voice hoarse.

Instead i hear him walking into my room, and sitting on my bed.

I turn over to face him and ask him a question, but only feel a pair of lips kiss me.

Before my instincts tell me to immediately pull away, he pulls away first.

I look up not to see Brendon, but the blue haired beauty with stained cheeks.

"Did you really think I would leave you that easily?"

I don't feel good

Everything to me is falling apart.

Ehhhh

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