Pizza Boy ★ joshler {completed}

Chapter 29- euphoria

Ik this is a serious chapter but in the picture is my little child joey, he is a Dalmatian and my gf bought him for me and I luv him so much it's fine

EDIT: oh my god I know I haven't updated in over a month frick. I've been trying to but for the longest time my phone was broken and it wouldn't allow me to get onto Wattpad so I couldn't update I'm so so sorry.

It didn't last long.

Not the kiss that lasted long.

But josh, didn't.

After the...i-incident, and the kiss josh left because of Alex and he just left. Probably for good anyway.

*flashback*

After the kiss josh just decides to hold me. In the rain. By the bridge. Euphoria multiplied throughout the air.

"Josh what do we do now?" I ask letting what I think is a tear slip by but who can tell in the pouring rain.

"T-Tyler you know I love you and I would do anything to care for you but you're right you're just right. We can't do this anymore I just I want to stay with you. I need to stay with you. But Alex is apart of my life and I am in love with him but I can't leave you. Tyler you're my number one priority in life I need you in my life." Josh says caressing my hair roughly in which I can tell he's crying. Hard.

I'm trapped I just keep lying to myself. Josh doesn't love you Tyler. He never did, you were just a temporary part of his life and you're meaningless. It's Alex and Josh. Alex and josh. There's no more Tyler and josh because you weren't important Tyler. You were never important not even when you had josh.

Josh's POV

I don't want to do this.

Tyler doesn't deserve this. Not after what happened to Brendon.

Tyler doesn't deserve this I can't leave. Not now. Not now.

Tyler still crosses my mind everyday. I'm tempted at the thought of still saying or thinking I'm in love with him. But sometimes it's hard to help myself.

His eyes. His lips. His hair. His nose. Him.

Everything about him screams no flaws and it pains me to see someone so hurt. Someone who doesn't deserve what they go through. Someone who needs me. Someone who I need.

I want Tyler. I want to be apart of his life the way I once was. The way I am. The way Brendon had been.

I could fall asleep right here in the rain. The pouring tears. The falling rain.

Hmm. What if I jumped off the bridge?

What if I never met Alex? What if I never met tyler? What if Tyler ended up jumping off the bridge without me saving him? What if I ended up kicking the chair and my plans weren't ruined in high school?

"Tyler don't ever leave me."

"Josh what if I already have?"

*End of flashback*

"Alex come on," I yell straightening my tie, "we're going to be late!"