Pizza Boy ★ joshler {completed}

Chapter 27- cancer

"Tyler! T-Tyler wake up!" I hear feeling hands pressured on my chest shaking me.

I open my eyes blinking them a few times before I realize what had happened.

"B-bren?" I ask looking around at him.

"Tyler! God, fuck! Y-you you fell and passed out and you wouldn't, just, Tyler I'm sorry I'm sorry!" Brendon says bringing my head to his chest holding me. I can feel a wetness appear on my arm which is just apparently Brendon's hot tears.

I remember what happened.

Cancer. I'm losing the only person who cares about me left to cancer.

His shaky broken voice hurts my ears the way that it crawls it's way into my worked up head. I sit there staring at the wall anger throbbing through my brain. I stare at the wall and begin to chuckle a bit on what my mind has become. I remain to stare at the wall processing everything about it, the green tea forest green type of light color. It looks dry. I notice the flaws about it, the cracks in it, the lines that aren't supposed to be there, the way that there's nothing there to care for the cracks in the wall. Or fix the ugly dry patches, or the mysterious lines that are slashed across not supposed to be there.

All I hear is a faint ringing sound and all I feel is the warmth of Brendon next to me and the tears falling down my cheek to my neck.

The ringing grows to be louder and louder until I soon forget it's there. I chuckle once again and I swear there and then I thought I had been dead because all I saw was a bright light for what felt like hours on end.

Is it normal for someone to be able to feel their own heart beating? Their own blood flowing through their veins? Able to feel the earth moving? Each and every bone in their body? Able to hear music playing everywhere? Can feel my body digesting the food I never ate? Can hear my thoughts echoing out loud? Can hear paint drying? Able to hear my hairs stand on them own and goosebumps grow through the loud ringing? The sound of my nerves crashing together?

This processes in through my mind for minutes.

"Tyler please!" I hear Brendon yell.

I shake my head once again asking what the matter is.

"Tyler you've been staring at the goddamn wall for like fifteen minutes! You scare me so much Tyler!"

I stare at him. "I scare you? I scare you? Brendon! You're the only person left who cares about me and you're going to be gone, you're going to fucking leave me and there's nothing I could do about it!"

"Oh Tyler..." he says clutching on to my head and just holding me. "God I'm so Fucking sorry I love you so much, why did this happen?"

"I don't know Brendon, I love you so much and I don't know what I'm going to do without you, god."

We sit there on my cold smelly rug for what felt like an hour. Sobbing like idiots. Brendon just holding me. Just holding my thoughts in.

"Tyler, T-Tyler.." Brendon says beginning to clutch his chest.

He falls on the ground. Blood is coughed up.

"Brendon! Fuck!"

***

I sit in the waiting room of the hospital waiting for the doctor to come out.

My head buried in the palms of my hands, I didn't have any tears left.

I look up feeling a tap on my shoulder. The room so quiet that you could hear the echo of it.