How I hate him - ft. Luke Hemmings and 5sos

Plans

The next morning Luke was gone when I woke up. When I sat up I immediately lay back down. A hungover had hit me. My head was pounding and I reeked of alcohol. It wouldn't be flattering to let Luke see me like this. I had to at least fix my hair; I didn't have any makeup with me, before Luke saw me. It wasn't my lucky day. The bedroom door opened and he walked in.
"Good morning." he smiled and smiling back seemed to physically hurt me. Even my smile-muscles hurt.
"Good morning to you too," I groaned, "Where are our parents?"

"My mum is at the hockey training with Rory and Demi and your parents are already back home. My dad is working. All of them are doing this with a hangover," he laughed, "How are you? That groan you just let out doesn't indicate that you are feeling well."
"You're right, I'm not. How are you?"
"Fine, I've got a higher alcohol tolerance than you obviously. Do you want something to eat or drink?"
My stomach rumbled as an indication that I indeed wanted to eat something, and I was in desperate need for some water. My throat felt like sandpaper. So I let him know that. 
"I'll make you a sandwich." Luke said, but I shook my head. "No, I'll do it. Let me just get dressed first." 
He nodded and walked downstairs. A little later I got out of bed, now changing into the clothes I wore yesterday and I had fixed my hair and makeup a little. By fixing I meant putting my hair in a ponytail and wiping the leftover mascara from my eyes. It wasn't going to get better than this. 
When I was sure I could stand up long enough without throwing up, I walked downstairs. Suddenly I stopped because it hit me: Luke and I had made out, we slept in the same bed and I told him I liked him! 
I gave myself a mental facepalm. How was I going to explain this if anyone ever found out? Not that making out wasn't a thing between us already, but the other things... That was out of character for me. What if he held that against me? In the past he definitely would've and maybe he still would... It wasn't weird that I still didn't trust him after all these years.
I walked into the kitchen and immediately grabbed the knife from Luke's hand to let myself kinda feel in control. 
"I can do this. I'm not a little girl." I snapped, not sure if it was the hangover or the shame talking. Luke took this as a sign not to argue and grabbed a smoothie out of the fridge and I looked at him for a moment. In a moment of clarity, I knew that I definitely liked him. How did that even happen? The boy really could do things to you. How many other girls had felt this way? I didn't even know the answer to that.
Nevertheless, it was time for honesty.
"By the way, I meant what I said yesterday."
"What do you mean?" Luke asked me questioningly. Now was the time to be bold, I had nothing left to lose.
"I mean that I like you, and I don't know why, but it hit me. Big time," I started, "I can't believe I would ever admit that, but why else would my heart so fast? Why would I suddenly be okay with you kissing me, when I swore I would never do that?" I said and he grinned. Damn, that grin...

"Your stomach probably felt weird because you were drunk, but I... never mind. Really?"
"Yeah, I think so. Please don't be a jerk about this." 
He leaned forward, grabbing my face in his hands. "So now I can do this..." he kissed me, "Without getting slapped?"
I nodded and tried my best not to blush. My eye fell on the guitar in the corner of the room and that sparked my curiosity. "Is that yours?" 
Luke nodded and picked it up. He softly hummed to himself and then started singing. It was a song that I think had never been on the radio, but it was beautiful.
But I was only really suprised when I heard how well Luke could sing! It made him seem all soft and relaxed, and that wasn't something common for him. If the girls at the school heard this, they would freak out. 
He smiled at me when he paused a little to catch his breath, and it was the most beautiful smile I had ever seen. That did something to me, and I closed my eyes and softly hummed along.
This was unbelievable: us sitting there enjoying ourselves after all those years of hating each other. 
"That was so beautiful..." I dreamily said when he was finished singing, "What song was that?"
"I wrote it myself, actually," he admitted, "I rarely sing in front of people. I'd guess it'd ruin my reputation."
"Ruin your reputation?" I was suprised he would even say that, 'I don't think you'd be able to do that. If anything, all the girls would fall for you even harder. You're really good, and that song was beautiful."
That comment obviously did him good and he smiled again, this time like he was really proud of himself. It made him a little uncomfortable though, so he changed the subject by offering to go ice skating. I happily agreed and we went over there. The fresh air did me good and the headache completely disappeared. 
We barely set foot on the ice or Jasey, the most popular girl in our school, comes towards us. She casually leans against the wall and shoots an evil glare at me. Everyone knows that she and Luke dated for a couple months, but then something happened and she did not take that well. Up until now I never wanted to know what happened. As a matter of fact, I had always hoped that Luke got heartbroken and not her. Now that isn't the case anymore, but being too afraid to ask what happened, I've decided not to do that at all.
"Hey Lukey," she says in an annoyingly high-pitched voice, "Oh, you're with... what's your name again?"
I open my mouth to answer her to not seem rude, but I don't get the chance. "Never mind, I don't care. Luke, why are you hanging out with her?" Again, she gave me a bitchy look.
"I'm sorry, but I don't think of myself as a that, and also you asked. My name is Jessy. Nice to meet you too." I snapped back and crossed my arms. 
"Jasey, chill out. You're not in the place to have a problem with that. We," he gestured to her, "Are not a thing anymore. I mean, the time I spent with you was great but after that... man, we are so not doing that again. Bye now." He cut her off and that made her go away. He clearly still had power over her, and I wasn't sure if I liked that or not. The way he just acted, it was very dominant and kind of dangerous. I could only imagine how nasty things had gotten between them. Even though Jasey seemed bitchy, she also seemed to be hurt by him.

"Sorry about that," he casually shrugged, "You know what happened. She clearly still wants me back, but that's not going to happen."
He acted like it was nothing, but I had a different opinion. "It's not really easy hanging out with you, you know? You know everyone and while most of them seem to like you, she clearly didn't and she probably has a reason for that. Now, I don't want to know what happened between the two of you. You don't owe me an explanation. Let's just have a fun day without any drama, okay?"
He agreed with me, and after a couple of hours we got back to Luke's house. When we arrived, to my surprise everyone was already there.
My mum smiled at me and then at Luke.
"Hey, come sit down." she said, smiling from ear to ear. Her hangover had worn off and she looked as good as she always did.
Luke gave me a weird look and I answered that by raising my eyebrows. Were we in trouble? It didn't seem like it. Maybe they knew what was going on between Luke and I. They couldn't know, though, because we tried to keep it between the two of us. But hey, parents always knew things, even when you tried to hide it.

"Now, since we're all getting along pretty well now," she said, looking at me and Luke in particular, "We thought it would be a great idea to go on a holiday with the eight of us. Would you like that?"
Of course we did, Luke and I answered at the same time.
Our parents then explained what their idea was: at Christmas time we had a two-week break, and they wanted to go to Amsterdam for a week and a half. That way, we would still be home in time before school started again. I had always wanted to go to Amsterdam: it was in the top 5 of cities I wanted to see. Some of my online friends had been there and they really enjoyed it. Therefore I had a little list of things I wanted to do already, but I had never heard my parents about it.

Luke wouldn't be himself if he hadn't made a dirty joke about the Red Light District, and I decided to join him. "I was looking for a job anyway so..."
"Jessy!" My mum yelled, covering Demi's ears like she hadn't heard it already. Luke and I burst out in laughter and we tried to stop laughing, but every time I looked at him I started laughing harder. 
After I got myself together, I agreed on the plans, though. It sounded like a good idea to me. Our parents booked the hotel and flight: we didn't have a say in that, but it didn't matter. As long as I had a bed to sleep in I was okay. 
Luke brought his laptop from his room and we started looking for things to do there. I liked to plan things so that I could see as much of the city in such a short time.
I found some paper and a pen and started writing things that we would like to do.
Soon, we had found some things:
The Amsterdam Dungeon;
The sex museum (Luke's idea, not mine);
The Rijksmuseum and the Moco Museum (my idea, Luke wasn't up for that);
The A'Dam Tower, and much more.
In very small script, I had written down 'Coffeeshop - not the kind where you can get coffee'. Our parents didn't have to see that.

This trip would also be the first time that Luke and I went somewhere where we didn't hate each other. In the past we had been to different places with our families, but at the time, they had to basically drag us by our hair. When we did, we wouldn't say a word to each other. But that had now changed, and I was very happy about that.

*Picture: Caitlin Carmichael, who plays Jasey*
*song: Jasey Rae by All Time Low*