How I hate him - ft. Luke Hemmings and 5sos

Loving

When he climbed into my bedroom, our lips immediately connected. His lips crashed against mine when I pulled him in by the collar and he pushed me against the wall. Never before had I been this reckless, and I had certainly never been so full of lust now.

"I fucking love you." he whispered, which sent shivers down my spine. Him admitting that he loved me with such intensity made me want him even more than I already did. In the time that we had been together I hadn't been ready for this, but now I was sure. Everything that we had been through only made my desire for him increase.
"Well fuck what others think, I love you too." I said before kissing him again. Our lips moved like they were made for each other, and his body was tense; he wante dme. 

"God I want you." Luke groaned like I read his mind and I tilted my head, exposing my neck. He brought his lips to my neck, making me moan. Everything was just right.
Luke pushed me down onto my bed and I felt him grind against me. He needed me and I needed him.
I tugged on his shirt, not wasting any time getting it off. I threw it across the room and bit on his lip, causing him to moan. He slipped my hand under my shirt and started fiddling with my bra. Just seconds later, it came off and he took off my shirt and bra. He kissed my nipple and I groaned. Just now I realised I hadn't closed my bedroom window. Well, Luke just had to wait for a second...
I cheekily grinned and walked over, quickly closing it before anyone could see me. Behind me, I could hear Luke let out a noise of frustration and I looked back. He was lying on my bed and I could see his bulge under his boxers. He was so ready, and so was I. The fact that he had more experience with this didn't matter to me: at this moment, he was fully mine. 
"Come here." he ordered me in a bossy way, and I liked that. I sat on top of him, but he immediately turned me around and took my underwear off. I was fully naked; now was Luke's turn. He stood up, taking his pants and boxers off. He then took a condom out of his wallet, and just a little later he was inside of me.

the next day

I woke up to a half-naked Luke and rolled over to kiss him. "What an amazing night," he smiled at me, "Can we do it again?"
I grinned and kissed him. "Nothing I want more than that, but your phone is buzzing like crazy and it's not really putting me in the mood." 
"God damn, can't they just..." he reached for his phone. All the twenty-seven texts were from his mom. 
"Well fuck them." Luke said before kissing me again. "Luke, you realise that you can't stay here, right? My parents don't know you're here."
That was a little weird, since I was sure we had been making some noises that could not have been missed... And Luke's parents were obviously worried, but hadn't bothered to check at my house.
"Well, let's get breakfast together." he said and I agreed. We both got dressed and I opened the window that let to the backyard. Luke, with his extraordinary condition, jumped out of the window like he did so every day. I instead, slowly climbed out until I hung with my hands on my balcony. "Luke help." I hissed, but I only heard him laugh. But he eventually reached out his arms, in which I landed perfectly. He gave me a quick kiss and we went on our way. We walked to the supermarket and a little later we came out with some cake and a bottle of water.
"What a luxury," Luke grinned, "Let's head over to the park."

When we had settled down on a bench I looked at the sunrise. After last night, I felt like I was experiencing everything for the first time. Never before had I thought the sunrise was so beautiful, and never before had I seen Luke look so perfect. It was for the first time in a year that I had felt so alive. When Luke and I had gotten to really know each other, it had been a whirlwind of emotions. Everything bad and everything good.
Sitting here, with the boy I loved, just enjoying the moment. I felt like myself. That was when I realised that, even though I liked some of it, this wasn't me. It was a mask that would keep myself from getting hurt. And I didn't like it this way: taking risks was just not for me. Even though I liked the thrill Luke gave me. I had just gotten a piercing and caught by the police, and that wasn't something I wanted to go through again. I didn't want to live a risky life. I had even started smoking, something I had always sworn I'd never do. And for what? Because I got hurt?

"Want one?" Luke offered me a cigarette, but I shook my head.
"Luke... can I tell you something?"
He nodded and I took a deep breath. "Luke... I'm not like you. I'm not someone that gets piercings and gets arrested. I'm not someone who can live a risky life. Please don't be mad at me, because I love you more than anyone else, but it's just... you're different than me. You always have been. And I want you and me to stay on the right path. Can you do that for me? I want to live a safe life with you. Maybe that's not how you feel, but it's how I feel."