Ashton was the first to break the silence that followed the news.
"What, you're kidding, right?" He yelled a little too close to my ear. My head immediately pounded, but seeing him so happy made me happy too. Ashton had always been a likeable guy.
"I'm not kidding," Luke stated, "It's just for three weeks, but hey, it's the beginning of something. It's in Europe, so we'll be the support act there. I'm not sure which cities but we can ask later."I tried to smile, but my eyes weren't cooperating. Of course I felt proud of them, but just as everything was getting back to 'normal', my boyfriend was going away again. Not that I wanted to be the clingy girlfriend, and I certainly had no fear of him abandoning me. Still, I couldn't help but worry.
A little hint of jealousy sparked within me. Luke was popular at his own school, but that was nothing compared to the attention he surely would get in Europe. I had seen him play before, and that was something else. Of course he was attractive, but him being on a stage gave him a whole new level of confidence.
What if he met other girls, who were prettier and funnier and nicer than me? He surely would get bored of me with the blink of an eye. But would he really replace me?
Thinking about that almost got the best of me and I wasn't going to cry. I shook my head, trying to convince myself. But I couldn't convince myself, nor could I convince Michael. No matter what, my oldest friend always saw right through me.
"Jessy, what's wrong?" Michael asked me and again I tried to smile.
"Nothing."
"Come on, you can't lie to me. I've known you for so long now, did you really think you can fool me? There's definitely something wrong." He put an arm around me and walked over to the hallway. He sat me down on the stairs and I told him what was on my mind straight away. Lying wouldn't work and so I ripped the bandage straight off. I told him I was afraid to lose Luke, that I was scared that he might meet someone new and I told him that I was afraid that we would grow apart.
Michael sighed and crossed his arms. He always did that when he was about to call me out on my bullshit, so I prepared myself. Michael was usually very sweet, but he could also be very straight to the point when he needed to.
"Jess, you're going to listen to me, and I'm telling you the absolute truth. Listen, Luke loves you and you love him. There's no denying that. Of course he's going to meet new people, but he's going to work so hard to make this relationship with you work. He'll give you his world. You're his world, okay? And even though you're going to miss each other a lot, I'm sure Luke will try to stay in touch with you, because he doesn't wanna lose you. He told me that and you know how difficult it is for him to express his feelings. So, chin up and talk about this with Luke, okay? You need to do that."That was the longest I had ever heard Michael talk, and I had no choice but to believe every word he said. Michael usually didn't need much words to express himself.
"Okay, I believe you. That was a wonderful monologue, not to mention I have never heard you talk that much. Ever." I managed to now genuinely smile.
"Good," my friend said and hugged me, "Now let's celebrate with nothing other than pizza!"
We walked back to the living room where the other three guys were already eating pizza. I grabbed a slice too, chewing on the melted cheese. This made me feel a little better.
After dinner Luke wrapped me in a big hug. He made me feel secure and that was a feeling I hoped I could have forever. Maybe he would always make me feel secure, even when we weren't physically together. We would have to see that, but I had good hope. I had to.
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How I hate him - ft. Luke Hemmings and 5sos
FanfictionI am Jessy. Who I hate? Luke Hemmings. God, how I hate that boy... But how would I ever know I was going to fall for that boy and all his problems?