[Tony's POV]
We just arrived to the hotel, everyone meeting up with Becky, Matt, and Macy as I check the bedroom, finding Avie just listening to music, Pebbles chasing his tail on the bed before jumping down to greet me. Avie wore a pair of light purple sunglasses, which went with a light purple shirt she wore.
She was still sickly thin, and was even more pale, as if she hasn't seen the sun in years. Yet she still looked beautiful.
I picked him up and walked over to where Avie sat and placed the hyper puppy on her lap.
"Tony, is that you??" she asked, her hand reaching out and faling on my shoulder, then trailing up to my cheek.
I nodded. "Yeah," i said, then carefully reached up, pulling the sunglasses carefully off, and gasp as i see her beautiful eyes... tainted with red.
Her poor beautiful eyes that can't see anythign for who knows how long.
She looked down, pulling the glasses down to cover her eyes.
"I knew it. I am hideous," she said in a breaking voice.
"Never! You'll never be hideous, Avery Winters," i said.
She sniffled and looked up, not exactly at me.
"Look at me, Tony. I can't see, because some assholes and a bitch beat me and broke me to a point where i actually cried blood and the pain actually nearly blew my heart apart. I was reminded of all the pain in my life, Tony, they forced all types of drugs into me," she sobbed.
I pulled her into my lap and hugged her as she sobbed.
I was horrified by what she told me. They put her through more hell than the Devil himself can force upon someone.
She never deserved any of this. Her brother was murdered, her family commited suicide, she was beaten at home and school, forced to look to alcohol, drugs, starving herself, and self harm for comfort, even abused at hospitals, lost a friend who regretted all the hate he gave her... Now she had gone through a rerun through all her mistakes and traumatic experiences into one moment, and it made her blind.
The worst part: She went through everything alone. She had lost faith that anyone can save her. Her only bit of strength was music, but we couldn't do anything.
Before meeting Avie, it was simple. Us rockstars, guitar players, celebrities, singers, drummers... All us musicians are seen as an inspiration, as heroes. But we're not really heroes, no matter what everyone saids.
We can't save everyone. We can't hold someone and tell them it'll be okay. We can't take away the razors and clean away the blood. We can't protect them from Society and those who wish them harm. We can't heal their misery and take them away from the pain in their lives.
More importantly, we can't always keep the heart beating.
All we can do and keep doing is being who we are and serving our purpose as musicians, giving kids and people the hope they so desperatly need through the power of music.
"What i would so badly do, Avie," i said. "To take away your pain, your unhappiness... Just so you can smile without faking it. What i would do to actually be a hero. More importantly your hero."
She tilted her head up. "What do you mean??"
"Ever since I could play guitar, that's all i wanted to be. Someone's hero. But then when Pierce the Veil began, we, along with other bands, soon began to realize that we can't save everyone. It broke us inside, but it was true. We can't save everyone, and that's why we continue our jobs, giving it all our hearts in our music, makign sure that even if we aren't there, we can still save them," i said, tears streaming down my face.
A tear fell on her cheek, and she wped it.
"You're crying... D-Did i make you cry??" she asked, looking more sad behind the glasses.
I gulped. "No... Its the fact that I have no power to save people like you, i can't take away the pain and sorrow from you. Its what i want to do for you so badly. Its what i wish i can do," i said. "Also... its all my fault."
"What??" she asked, confused.
"If you never met me, you would have never lost Rocky, you would have never been nearly raped by some psycho nurse, you would have never have gotten hurt at that concert in Cincinnati, you would have never been upset at me being worried, you wouldn't have been threatened by Mindy, or even in that coma. I made you're life an even bigger hell and i'm so fucking sorry Avie," i sobbed into her shoulder.
"No, Tony!!" she shouted, pushing off, then feeling around my shoulders and neck until she was holding to my face as she inched her face towards mine.
"Never, EVER, say that!! You never made my life hell!! NEVER!!!" she sobbed hard. "You saved me from ever ending up 6 feet underground in a grave. You made sure was okay, you treated me different from any other fan, you were always there looking out for me, loving me, even when I pushed you away," she sobbed. "Please never say you are the cause of my agony and depression, Tony Perry!!"
[Avie's POV]
How could Tony say that its his fault that he's made my life miserable??
He did NOTHING!
I can feel him swallow a gulp before a small cry escapes. "I'm so sorry," he cried.
I pull him into my arms and he felt him wrap his think muscely arms around my fraile waist, my thin toothpick like arms around him as he held me.
"I'm so sorry, Avery," he cried.
It was then i had a memory, what Blake and I would do when either of us had a nightmare.
I then began to sing to him.
When I see your smile
Tears roll down my face I can't replace
And now that I'm strong I have figured out
How this world turns cold and it breaks through my soul
And I know I'll find deep inside me I can be the one
I will never let you fall (let you fall)
I'll stand up with you forever
I'll be there for you through it all (through it all)
Even if saving you sends me to heaven
It's okay. It's okay. It's okay.
Seasons are changing
And waves are crashing
And stars are falling all for us
Days grow longer and nights grow shorter
I can show you I'll be the one
I felt Tony calm down and his hold on me tighten just a bit, but not enough to hurt me.
"You have a beautiful voice, Avie," he muttered.
I smiled a bit and felt myself blush as I continued the song.
I will never let you fall (let you fall)
I'll stand up with you forever
I'll be there for you through it all (through it all)
Even if saving you sends me to heaven
Cuz you're my, you're my, my, my true love, my whole heart
Please don't throw that away
Cuz I'm here for you
Please don't walk away and
Please tell me you'll stay woah, stay woah
I then felt him pull us to the bed and i embrace him protectively as I sang the last part.
Use me as you will
Pull my strings just for a thrill
And I know I'll be okay
Though my skies are turning gray
I will never let you fall
I'll stand up with you forever
I'll be there for you through it all
Even if saving you sends me to heaven
[to fade]
I finished the song, and felt Tony's lips, and knew he was smiling and then the next thing i knew, his lips were on mine as we kissed softly.
I then pull back smiling. "I love you. I love you so much Tony," i said.
"I love you more, Avie," he said, then pulled me closer and pulled off the covers. I took off the glasses and placed them on the side as i curled into his warm chest and soon began to feel sleepy.
"Good night, Avie," i hear Tony say before I fell asleep.
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You are listening to Your Guardian Angel by The Red Jumpsuit Apparatus---->
