Not All Heroes Sing (Tony Perry Love Story)

*Chapter 09*

[Avie's POV]

I woke up the next morning feeling a bit groggy. My arms and body covered in new bandages.

My face was sticky with dried tears, strands of hair stuck to my cheeks, and then I remembered everything from last night.

I run a hand through my hair and sigh.

At least I'll never see Tony again.

It was then the door opened and Matt walked in. He looked a bit better.

"Hey," he said, giving me a sympathetic smile.

"Hi," i said, and hands me a cup of coffee. That's when i realize im in the guest room where i usually stay at when im at his house.

"Macy told me what happened. Are you okay??" he asked.

"Not really," i said, sipping the coffee a bit. "I just cant believe he knows."

"Well, you may never see him again. So you don't really have to worry about it."

I nod and just sip my coffee.

He's right. Today Pierce the Veil moves on to the next city. On Monday Macy and Matt will be registering out of the school and then Wednesday morning they move away.

"I wish you didnt have to move," i said.

"Me neither. But you just got to promise to stay strong, okay??" he asked.

I nod as we share a hug.

"So, want breakfast??" he asked.

I shake my head no, and he sighs. 

"Im just not hungry. I'll go take a shower.

"Use the one in my room. Macy is dying her hair right now," Matt said. 

I nod and got my bathroom things and clothes as i enter Matt's bathroom and lock the door, unwrapping my bandages and looking at myself in the mirror.

To think, Tony saw all of this. My hero... he knows i'm broken.

Then again, he can't really be a hero. He can't make the pain disappear, he can't just take me away from here. He's a rockstar, not Superman.

I strip down, dig into my jean pockets for a blade, and step into the shower, letting the warm water relax my muscles.

As i stood there, i just let the water fall and i let the blade drag across my wrist.

I wasnt upsetting or anything, but i really needed to do that. its an urge. I can't stop.

Soon i wash myself, erase all traces of blood that dripped, and turned off the water.

I climbed out, wrapping myself in a fluffy towel, and dried off.

I wrapped my wounds, got dressed in a Drop Dead tank top, white skinnies, and purple vans with my black beanie and logged in on my laptop to tumblr, reblogged some stuff, and then logged off to read a book.

I just needed to do stuff to keep my mind off what happened to the concert.

It was then Macy walked in, freshly died hair tied into a fishtail braid with a white rose clipped to it. It was a mix of different color at the tips, mostly being bluish-green.

She held a plate of pizza in her hands, and a cup of soda in another.

I then look up at the time and see it was already 7 pm.

Wow, time sure flew.

"Matt ordered a pizza. He wants you to at least eat this," she said.

She hands me the cheese and ham filled pizza and sighed, taking it.

Might as well. Haven't eaten since i think Wednesday. Don't know how i've havent passed out yet.

As i was taking the drink, i noticed some numbers written on Macy's hand, looking a little bit faded.

It was a phone number.

"Who's number is that??" i asked, curious.

"Oh! Um... just a, um.... singer?" she asked, looking a bit nervous about it even blushing.

Singer??....

"No way, Vic?!" i asked, smiling a bit in excitement.

"Maybe," she smirked.

"What were you guys talking about yesterday??" i asked, patting the end of the bed for her. She sits down.

"He's actually a really amazing guy. We have a lot in common, and... i may like him a bit," she said, blushing a bit.

"Macy, that's really great. Have you talked to him??" i asked.

"A bit. Its just... i feel too different from him. Like... not good enough to be with some hardcore singer. I mean, look at me. I dress like a Valfree drawing and have no friends except pretty much you and Matt," she said.

Wait... she thinks of me as a friend??

"You think... I'm a friend??" i asked.

"Well, yeah. Just don't know how to make any, that's why i've treated you more like an aquaintance. I'm sorry, Avie," she said, rubbing her arm.

I smile a bit.

"Its okay, Macy. And i've also considered you a friend too," i said.

She smiles a bit and pulls me into a hug as she's careful with my bruises.

"Thank you, Avery. I'm really going to miss you," she said.

I smile and hug her back. "I will, too. And if anything, talk with Vic more. You guys would actually make a good couple."

She blushes a bit and then her phone rings and she looks at it, smiling. "Its him."

"Go talk with him. I promise, i'm going to eat," i said, actually meaning it.

I should actually try to get something into my stomach so i wouldn't worry Matt or Macy now.

She nods and gets up, typing in her phone while i start eating my pizza.

Soon i'm done and just sipping my soda, which i'm pretty sure is Dr. Pepper.

I zoomed through Twitter until a tweet caught my attention, and made my heart stop and my eyes fill with tears.

@tony_turtle: Have someone really special in my mind. Recently met her just yesterday. Hoping she's okay. Really worried. Always remember, you guys always have someone there who cares, no matter what. <3

I wipe my tears away.

He cares about me. Why should he??

"He shouldn't. He probably just thinks you're crazy and he'll stick you in that nut house again. Remember that place?? Then again, you deserve to go back there. You made him cry, you worthless cry baby. Or even better, you should have killed yourself like your parents did. Just do it now and stop making people's lives miserable, you stupid bitch."

I burst into more tears as memories from there flooded back from the suicide scene to the 2 years spent at the Psychiatric Ward.

What have i ever done to deserve all of this??

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