Not All Heroes Sing (Tony Perry Love Story)

*Chapter 57*

[Avie's POV]

I sat on the couch, just playing with my fingers as i hear everyone getting ready.

My blindness is thankfully beginning to fade, but everything is still unseeable.

Tour finally ended and the boys will be home any moment now. Christmas Eve is tomorrow and I feel bad i can't get him a Christmas present.

Stupid blindness, avoiding me from geting a job to raise some money. I hated this so much. I should have just avoided Randy. He would have been home with his parents and not in a morgue waiting to be put in a coffin. I should have just died in that fucking basement. I should be with Blake, my parents, and Rocky. Now, i'm blind and the friend i forgiven is gone. All because of me.

"Hey, Avie, let's go get dressed before the boys get here," i hear Macy say.

I nod quietly and feel her take my hand as she lead me upstairs to her room.

"Want me to do your hair??" she asked. I shrugged, deciding not to care and then felt her remove my sunglasses, probably to check how my eyes are doing. The light doesnt hurt them anymore, that's for sure. But i somehow feel comfortable with the sunglasses on eitherway.

As i felt her braid my hair, i couldn't stop thinking about what i was thinking about before, as well as the night i sang for Tony.

"Its all my fault," i said.

"What??" she asked.

"Everything. I should be dead, Macy. Not Randy. He didn't deserve to get shot down there, and I should be dead instead of being treated like I'm some cripple, feeling hideous," i said.

"Don't say that! Randy is in a better place now, an-"

"But he was too young!!! For Christ's sake, i should ahve seen Mindy coming and then maybe have warned him!!! But i'm too big of a weak ass to do anything!!!" I shouted, cutting her off. I then felt tears streaming down my cheeks.

It was quiet, yet i felt Macy there. I continued to talk.

"I saw Blake, and him, and my parents, and Rocky down there. God, how i wanted to be with them. I felt so much pain i don't even know how i survived. Even the voices in my head was too tired to keep going, hell i even saw the voice become a person in front of my eyes. It may have been the fucking drugs i was injected with, but i still saw My internal conscience. A-And i had my parents and Blake who told me i had to keep going, but i didn't want to. I feel like the biggest burden to Pierce the Veil and their friends and family!!! Mostly Tony!!!! I never wanted him to see my cuts or scars in the first place!!! Ever since that day i've just wanted to die!! He was never meant to know anything about my shitty worthless life!!!" i sobbed hard, feeling my heart hurt.

"Avie.... I had no idea," i ehar Macy's voice said.

"I'm too worthless for Tony!! I've made him cry too many times. He even thought it was all his fault i ended up like this!!! I'm breaking him emotionally and its all because he saw my fucking scars!! I ruined his life, Macy!!!! I ruined his life and I should just disappear from his life so i won't cause him anymore pain!!!! I love him too much to keep hurting him!!!!" i screamed in tears.

I felt arms embrace me, and recognized them as Macy's.

I hugged ehr back as she sat me down on the bed with ehr arms still around me as i cried into her shoulder.

"Shh, its alright," she said.

[Macy's POV]

She is not at fault here, and its not Tony's fault, either.

Avie had a great effect on TOny. In fact, when he left for tour, he looked like he didn't want to leave her no matter what, like leaving he would be the end of him.

Saying that he's in love or even crazy about Avie is an understatement. 

Avie loves him so much, but is afraid.

"Avie, calm down. Tony loves you with all his heart, and you can't keep blaing youself for all the deaths. James killed Rocky. A mugger killed Blake. Mindy killed Randy. You're parents killed temselves because of the Blake's death. No where there does it say 'Avie killed them.' You are a victim just like they were," i said. "But you're a survivor, and you need to survive for them. For us. For Tony."

She breathed out a shaky breath and gulped down some air.

I wiped away her tears. "Come on. You'll be with Tony, and he's really excited to see you," I said.

She sniffled and nodded, then lead her to the bathroom to help her wash up and decided to put some make up on her, but settled for some soft blush, a pale cream colored eyeshadow, and pale reddish-pink lip gloss. Keep her looking a bit natural.

Her eyes thankfully are starting to look better.

I helped put her on a Sleeping With Sirens top and black skinnies and a denim vest, along with some jewelry, and then got her sparkly black Toms, her hair in a fishtail braid, and tehn we hear a knock at the door.

"Come in," i said, then saw as Vic and Tony entered.

"Hey," Vic said.

"Hey babe," i said as he came and wrapped his arm around my waist, kissing me while he hid something around . "I missed you.

"Missed you more," he said, holding up a bouquet of daisies for me, wrapped up in a poinsettia crown for me.

I gasp and smile as i take them and kiss him passionatly.

[Tony's POV]

It was good being back home, especially for the holidays.

I went with Vic to Avie's room to see her and Macy all ready. 

Her beautiful eyes were comnig back, but still couldn't see.

She loked amazing, her eyes slightly a little bit puffy.

I lean over and kiss her softly, making her flinch.

"Its me," i said, placing a hand gently on her cheek.

Her arms then threw themselves around my neck as she clung to me.

"I missed you so much, Tony," she said.

"I missed you more," i said, tehn pulled back, kissing her softly. She kissed me back.

"You look beautiful," i said.

A blush crept across her cheeks and then we were called downstairs.

Macy handed Avie her sunglasses and Avie put them on, and i then smiled, having an idea.

I then walk up and scoop Avie into my arms bridal style, makin g her squeak in surprise.

"My Princess?" i smirked, and i saw her brush a brighter red.

I knew from her puffy eyes she was crying, but its best i don't ask. I don't want her to start crying about it again.

I wanted ehr to be happy right now, and spend as much time with her as possible, and hope the blindness disappears soon.

We made our way upstairs and see everyone already there, ready to get the 'Welcome back party' started.

I was excited since Christmas Eve is tomorrow, and i was determined for Avie to have an amazing Christmas.