Help me find a way to breathe [Oli Sykes FF]

Chapter 31

So again, merry christmas to all of you! I hope you'll have nice holidays with your loved ones or just have a great time. You guys have been supporting me like crazy and I just can't be thankful enough for that xxo

The song for this chapter is Always Attract - You Me At Six and it's dedicated to @BlackAngelX 

This chapter is so short WHAT I'm sorry aaaah >.<

I'm not too sure but I don't think that I will have many more chapters on this.. wow this makes me sad. I loved writing this story so much. Maybe I will write a third book for it but we'll have to see. Now please enjoy the chapter and don't forget to leave a comment behind. Tell me about how you spend christmas! <3

Oliver's POV:

I gave Cassandra a shocked look. "What do you mean by that?", I asked confused cocking my head to the side. She bit her lower lip and lowered her head a bit. "Like I said it. If you want us to be together again, I'm not the one to complain. Not at all", she muttered shyly. Was she being serious?

"I love you, Oliver. I always did and I won't ever stop", she said and looked me right into the eyes.

"But what about Ben?"

"He broke up with me.. who could blame him? But he knew it from begin with, that I only love you. I will have to talk to him but that shouldn't keep us from being together, right?"

"You're serious about this, huh?"

"Does it look like I'm joking?", she sighed giving me a sad look.

It wasn't that I didn't want to be together with her again. It was quite the opposite, I didn't want anything else actually! But I feared to lose her again. I couldn't bare that another time. "Oli, I know I hurt you. I know a simple sorry can't make up for what I did, nothing can. There's no apologize for my behaivour and I wish I could turn time back. But right now I just beg for another chance. Let's leave the past behind, let's start from zero and forget all of this. I promise you: I will never leave you again", she said.

I bit my tongue, still not sure what to say to that. I was just way too scared for it. She kept staring at me with her beautiful soft eyes I had missed so much. After what seemed like eternity of silence, she let go off me with a small sigh and nodded. "I understand", she whispered and got up. "I'm sorry, I shouldn't have asked, that was silly", she added with a soft chuckle as she turned around.

But before she could go, I grabbed her hand and spun her around. I looked her right into the eyes, taking a deep breath.

If not now, then never.

I squeezed her hand firmly and kneeled down in front of her. "I don't think you understand how often I imagined this", I chuckled looking up to her. "Never in my whole life did I want anything else than be together with you. Being able to hold you. Being able to hold you forever. I always wanted you to be mine and nothing else. I love you, Cassandra. And you know that. You are perfect, literally perfect. Everything you do and everything you say is what keeps me alive, not kidding. You wouldn't know how rough it really was to be without you. No one does, not even I understand it. I don't know why I love you so much or why I always feel the urge to hold your hand and never let go. But I do know that I want you to be happy. I want you to smile everyday and I wish I could be the reason for that smile. But when you left I figured I could never be."

I paused, looking into her gorgeous, rather surprised eyes as a smile came up to my lips.

"You are not the one asking for another chance, I am. So I want to ask you...", I muttered.

With her free hand, she covered her mouth in shock while I reached for my jeans pockets. I took the ring and a small laugh escaped her lips. "You still have it?", she asked smiling. "I do. I will always keep it until the right person will wear it. And we both know that can only be you", I replied with a grin. I cleared my throat: "Cassandra Evans, do you want to marry me?"

A single tear rolled down her cheek and she bit her lower lip. "Yes, Oliver. I do", she finally said nodding. She then dropped down on her knees as well, wrapping her arms around my neck as she pulled me close and pressed her lips against mine.

And in that moment everything was like it was supposed to be. And for all I care the time could've stopped and we could've stayed like this forever and ever. For all eternity.

"I love you, Cassie", I whispered against her lips causing her to smile. "I love you too", she chuckled quietly.

I gently took a hold of her hand and slipped on the ring. She looked at it with dreamy eyes. "It's so beautiful", she breathed admiring the look of it on her finger. "That's just because you're the one who wears it, gorgeous", I stated making her laugh softly as she pecked my lips. "Thank you, Oli", she whispered but I shook my head. "I'm the one who has to thank you", I replied grinning.