Help me find a way to breathe [Oli Sykes FF]

Chapter 15

Song for this chapter is Lived A Lie - You Me At Six. I love this song so much omg <3 Picture on the side is a gif of BMTH. LOOK AT HOW PRECIOUS THEY ARE HOLY MOLY!

I'm uploading 2 chapters today, because it's been very long. Also another big thank you goes out to @kellicislife who also helped me out a lot. So this chapter is dedicated to you! I have the storyline for the next.. idk 8 chapters or something like that now! Thank you so much, your supporting me so well I love you all ;w; 

Now have fun reading!! c:

Cassandra's POV:

"What do you want to call it? Do you think it's gonna be a boy or a girl?", I heard Oli's voice. He asked me those questions for the millionth time and I started to get fed up with it. "My god, Oli. Calm down, would you?", I sighed and forced a smile. "I told you, I don't know yet. It's so early for all this, we have so much time left", I chuckled and he nodded.

"I'm just super excited", he grinned widely as he kissed my temple. "I know, me too", I agreed with a nod and bit my lower lip. It's been a few days since Warped started. But I can't wait to get home again. Don't understand me wrong, touring is fun but it really starts to get on my nerves. Since Oli and the others know about the pregnancy, they just won't shut up about it.

It's always the baby here and the child there and this and that. Sad thing is, with every time I get asked about it, I get more and more anxious. Everyone expects me to be the greatest mother ever. But honestly, I still have no clue how I'm going to handle all this.

I'm going to have to quit modeling and I don't know whether it's that easy for me to find another job and still having time for the baby at the same time. So it's probably gonna end up in me taking care of the little monster while Oli has to work even harder on tour, recording and Drop Dead too. Awesome. Note the sarcasm.

Maybe it sounded really bitchy but I had so many doubts, I couldn't even be happy about the fact that I was pregnant. I should be, I know. But I just don't feel ready for it..

Maybe it's just the shock, maybe the joy will come with the time but right now I just wished everything was back to normal.

"Hey, Cassie. Are you listening?", Nicholls voice interrupted my thoughts. I flinched up and gave him a questioning look. "Sorry, what did you just say?", I asked. "We're going now. You know, the signing session. Do you want to come with us?", he asked but I shook my head. "Nah, I'll pass", I replied.

"You sure?", Oliver asked with a concerned look on his face. I rolled my eyes and sighed. "I'll be fine, promise", I groaned. "I don't know, I don't want you to be all by yourself, love", Oli muttered. God damn it, what am I? Five years old? "I'll be with All Time Low and watch their performance. Don't worry, I can take care of myself", I said trying hard not to sound annoyed. Oliver was about to retort something, when I cut him off by pecking his lips.

"You should get going, the fans are waiting", I smiled. Matt Kean gently pushed Oli towards the door after they all said goodbye and then they left the bus. After the door shut, I closed my eyes for a second and inhaled the sweet sound of silence. Why that was relaxing.

After taking in a deep breath, I grabbed my phone and texted Alex. "Hey, you guys free? You're performing soon, right? Can I come backstage and watch? c: xo" I didn't even have to wait too long for an answer. A few moments later my phone buzzed. "Sure. We're already there, hurry up if you don't wanna miss us :) xo" That was all it needed for me to get up from the sofa and put on my Vans before I left.