Help me find a way to breathe [Oli Sykes FF]

Chapter 33

It's been a while, my little peasants. However, long story short, I think this book is coming to an end. Perhaps I will add another part or at least an Epilogue but I'm not too sure. It's been a great journey, I loved writing this a lot and I want to thank you for all your support. We Are Powerless was my first really successful thing on here and wow I never imagined my stories getting that much attention. It might be not much for a few of you but to me it means the world, so thank you!

This is very very short and I am sorry but I am clearly getting out of ideas, wow. I just actually wanted this story to have a nice and happy ending so yeah ._.

Also this chapter is dedicated to @lo_olaa because she's giving me the little extra push whenever I need it. Without this girl I would've stopped writing and stopped doing anything that brings me joy simply because I thought it wasn't good enough or worth the effort anyways. But Stephicakes right here bitchslaps me when I need to snap out of it. That's also why the song for this chapter is Dance Little Liar - Arctic Monkeys IT'S OUR JAM AND IT'S PERFECT, ALRIGHT?!

Cassandra's POV:

We were all standing there in shock and kept staring at Matt in disbelief. There was no way they would let Bring Me The Horizon die, would there? The silence was too much to endure and it was getting heavier and heavier each second. "Guys.. what are you talking about?", I finally spoke up carefully, slightly squeezing Oliver's hand as I looked between him and Matt. "You're not actually considering this, are you? What about the fans, what about everyone who supported you through this and what about you guys? You can't just stop!", I added with a raised voice. I was trying to keep calm but I couldn't and who would blame me? BMTH was the lad's everything and not just their's.

Out of the corner of my eye I saw Lee's shoulder tense. Vegan clenched his fists and Jordan nervously chewed on his bottom lip. All that while Oliver and Nicholls kept staring at each other as if they were frozen in place and would not care about their surroundings.

"Are you even listening to what I'm sayi-", I tried to snap but was interrupted.

"Shut it for a second, Cass!", Matt groaned and finally rolled his eyes at me.

"Would you really go this far, Oliver? Would you leave the band just to be together with her?", he demanded, raising an eyebrow at his friend. He crossed his arms in front of his chest and titled his head to the side slightly.

Now you'd think there would be another awkward silence but there wasn't. Oliver replied almost immediately, making it seem as if Matt wouldn't even had finished his question.

"Of course I would", he sighed, causing me to wince and look up at him in shock. That was not what I wanted to accomplish with the engagement. Absolutely not. "Oli..", I trailed off, looking up at him so he would realize what he was saying. Yet again he seemed one hundred percent aware of his words and actions.

"No, love. It's like I'm saying. Bring Me The Horizon means a lot to me, yes. But if being a member of this band means that I don't get to be with you, I don't want to be one. I know what you guys are thinking but I can't help it. Being with Cassandra makes me feel alive again, I need her! And I can't work with anyone who won't accept the fact that Cassie is the girl who makes me happy and complete", Oliver shrugged, glancing around the room.

Now, there was it again. The heavy silence. I didn't know what to say and obviously Oliver's little preach left the others speechless as well. I did not under any circumstances want Oli to give up his life for me, without the band he would be lost.

I looked up at the others, hoping they would know what to say. But everyone's mouth formed a thin line as they pressed their lips together, lack of words.

Suddenly there was a slow clapping sound. I turned my head to Nicholls who in fact clapped his hands, a crooked grin on his face. "Congratulations, Oliver. That's what we needed to hear", he chuckled. I raised an eyebrow at his sarcasm but when I glanced at the other boys, they had the same smile on their faces leaving me confused as hell. When I gazed up at Oli he had the same confusion plastered on his face.

"Come on, did you think I would want to throw you out of the band for marrying the love of your life?", Nicholls laughed and walked up to us. He patted Oli's shoulder, a proud grin on his face before he pulled him into a quick hug.

"I'm sorry for playing the asshole. I wanted to make sure. I didn't want you to regret your decision, is all", he sighed and then looked over to me. "I get it, you're the one who makes Oli happy and I don't have anything against it. You two deserve to be", he smiled while nodding his head. He reached out to me and hugged me to, whispering a congratulation in my ear. "It was about bloody time, man!", Lee groaned, throwing his head back in frustration.

"You almost got me, dude. You should be an actor", Jordan agreed, shaking his head as he slightly nudged Matt's arm. "I'm glad this whole drama is finally over", Vegan smiled. "It's not completely over yet", Oli muttered, biting his lower lip.

"Someone's gotta help us arranging the marriage", he said after a long pause with a joking smirk on his face, causing everyone to burst out in laughter. "Fuck you, man. That wasn't funny", Matt snickered, gently slapping Oliver's chest.