Help me find a way to breathe [Oli Sykes FF]

Chapter 16

So new system pattern. This is the second chapter I uploaded today. I'm going to take a little break, maybe a week or just a few days. But I'll write everyday and save as many as chapters as possible as a draft so I can upload more chapters at once.

But I'll have to study a lot in the next few days so yeah. I'll try my best guys, prmiseee!! I also will write the next few chapters out of Oli's POV again. It's been long since I did that lol

Song for this chapter seems to be the awesome Love Like War - All Time Low (ft. Vic Fuentes). This song is just perfect, seriously. Gif on the side is Oli being cute again haha <3

Cassandra's POV:

LAST DAY OF WARPED:

I got ready in the bathroom, brushed my hair, tossed on a While She Sleeps shirt along with red skinnies and black Vans before finally applying decent makeup. I figured it would be useless to cake my face in makeup at a festival so I just went with the normal powder and winged eyeliner plus mascara combination.

When I got out of the bathroom, the guys were still sleeping. Only Oliver was up. "Are you ready?", he asked me and I nodded. "Yup, let's go", I smiled at him and he got up, put on his shoes and grabbed my hand. He interlocked his fingers in mine and I gently squeezed his hand. Together we left the tour bus.

It was still very early morning which is why basically everyone else was still asleep too. Only a few were just getting up. The reason for Oli and me to be up so early was an interview he had to go to. Why I had to participate? Well I don't really know but whatever.

"They may ask very awkward questions", Oli chuckled causing me to laugh softly. "I know, it's fine", I smiled at him as we arrived at the BBC-radio bus. We only knocked once and the door was immediately opened by a girl. She was rather short and cute but seemed to be in her mid-20s. "Ah, there you are", she smiled genuinely and stepped aside. "Come in, come in. Everything's settled, we can start right away", she said and closed the door behind us.

"Just sit down on this couch. It's not gonna take more than 15 minutes, promise", the girl smiled as she sat down on a sofa next to the couch. We did as we were told and sat down on the couch. The cameramen said quick hellos and told us which camera was the main one before they gave us one microphone. After a few seconds they did a countdown thing. "Go", the cameraman said.

The girl smiled into the camera. "Hi guys, this is BBC1-Radio and I'm here with Bring Me The Horizon's frontman Oli Sykes and his girlfriend Cass Evans", she introduced the show before turning to us. "So, Oli. Today's the last day of Warped. Did you enjoy it?", she asked. Oli just nodded and said that it was really fun like always and he was already looking forward to next Warped too.

After a few more random questions towards the subject Warped, sharing the tourbus with the guys and how we got along with the other bands, a smile came up to the interviewer's lips. "Alright now, I don't know if you heard but I definitely did and I'm not the only one. Have you guys checked your twitter or tumblr tag recently?", she smirked. We just shook our heads in confusion making her laugh softly.

"There's this rumor going on that you are pregnant, Cass. Is that true?", she asked. My jaw dropped a little. How did the fans figure that out? I glanced over to Oli who just nodded at me. I guess it was no big deal for him to answer that. "Our fans must be stalking us or our friends can't keep a promise for shit", Oli snickered.

"So it's true?", the girl asked a bit surprised. "Certainly, yes. I am pregnant", I smiled nodding. "That's such big news! Congratz! Did you know before you went on tour?", she asked and I shrugged. "We knew before I went to Warped, yes. But I figured I could take care. And as hard as it sounds, although I'm at a festival, I haven't been drinking any alcohol and I didn't do anything stupid", I chuckled.

"I also didn't feel very comfortable with leaving her alone at home. But as she said, she's taking good care and we all make sure nothing happens, just like usually", Oliver added. "That's really great. I like that", the interviewer nodded before she went on with a few more questions.

"That was it then. Any last words to the fans?", she asked. Oli looked at me but I just shrugged not knowing what to say. Oliver looked at the camera with a serious look. "Stop stalking us though, seriously", he said with a joking attitude and a grin on his face. The camera was turned off and we said our goodbyes to everyone before leaving again.

"When's your performance?", I asked Oli as he wrapped an arm around my shoulder. "In three hours. Enough time for the nobheads to get up", he snickered and we walked back to the bus. "You think it was a good idea to make it official?", I muttered. "Did you want to keep it a secret?", Oli asked and titled his head to the side. I shrugged. "I don't know, I guess it's fine. Can't change it anymore anyways", I smiled at him and he nodded.

We arrived back at Horizon's and woke up everyone. We had plenty of time for breakfast and getting ready so we could walk slowly to the festival area. On the way we surprised a few fans as we just walked around in the crowds. The guys and even I signed one or two things and ad a few pictures with the fans before we made our way to the stage.

"Good luck, babe", I whispered against my boyfriend's lips before I gently pressed mine against them. We pulled away again after the other's already left on the stage. Oli was the last one to go on stage and as the first few chords of the first song were played, the crowd already sang along each word. After a few more songs, Oli announced the last one:

"Thank you all for coming to Warped guys! I think by now you all know this song. It has been surreal to perform for you, you were fucking mental. Keep that energy, you guys are amazing."

Their very last song was Deathbeds which is why I had to go on stage again, for the last time this tour though. I grabbed my microphone and stepped onstage, the familiar sight of the thousands of people cheering and clapping their hands greeting me. I began to sang my lines and paused a few times so the crowd would sing on. A smile came up to my lips, I would definitely miss this.

When the song ended, the crowd cheered and I was about to leave the stage again but Oli grabbed my hand. "Wait a second, babe. I'm not done with you yet", he grins into the mic. I raised my eyebrow in confusion when he turned towards the audience. "I guess you all know the news about us having a baby soon right?", the crowd whistled as he said that.

"When I heard about it, I thought that was the happiest moment of my life. But perhaps I can top that." He kneeled down and looks up to me, the crowd cheered again.

Oh my god.

"Cassandra Evans. We've known each other for ages, we've been through a lot. Bad things as well as wonderful moments and I loved every single second of it. You helped me get through my black hole back in highschool, you always supported me and the lads too. No matter what, you stayed by my side and that I can't be thankful enough for. You are seriously the most amazing, funny, smart, beautiful and lovely person I could think of. It's so surreal that you actually bare this douchebag known as Oliver Sykes. I don't want anything else but spend the rest of my life with the woman I love and the mother of my children so I'm asking you..." He pulled out a ring. "Do you want to marry me?"

The crowd screams and shouts "Say yes", they chanted all over. But just as their voices rang in my ears, so did my thoughts as they were racing through my mind:

Do I want to? Do I? Of course I do, right? But why do I have to ask myself that question then? No, I.. pull yourself together, Cassie. This can't be happening. I'm not ready for this.

As I parted my lips and took a breath so I could reply something, my voice was dead. What am I supposed to answer? I just stared speechlessly at Oli and the ring in his hand. It was a beautiful one, an expensive looking one too.

It was too much.

It was too much for me to handle.

I couldn't do this.

I wasn't ready for this.

"Say yes, say yes!", the crowd cheered on and on, a few were crying out of joy, maybe even because they were just touched. While I just stood there in complete shock and the world around me was spinning and breaking down. I turned around quickly and ran off the stage, leaving Oli without an answer. All I could hear was nothing, as the crowd went dead silent. I didn't care though. I just rushed past everyone backstage and sprinted back to the bus.

No, I don't want to.