Help me find a way to breathe [Oli Sykes FF]

Chapter 28

GUUUUUUUYYYS THE NEW OF MICE AND MEN SONG LIKE OMFG AM I THE ONLY ONE DYING? CAN YOU HEAR ME SCREAMING CAUSE I THINK YOU CAN ASDFGHJKLLLWEWAHIFHPHGH okay enough rant ;w; The song is jsut so perfect, I'm sorry. Little fangirl me is stupid, excuse little fangirl me.

Because the song is pure perfection itself, You're Not Alone - Of Mice & Men is the song for this chapter. And it's dedicated to @xxbandsxx thank you guys for your support, it's rad. I never thought I'd get so many awesome readers, I really appreciate that you're enjoying my stories <3

I still need an answer to my question though. Do you think a Facebook page would be useful? It's just that I don't really like chatting via wattpad and idk with the status updates here as well. I think I'll just create a page and tell you the link in the next chapter, so watch out for that c:

Ben's POV:

"Oliver? What are you up to, mate?", I asked in confusion as the rather lanky boy literally ran off the tour bus. He didn't answer though, bloody hell this guy didn't even look at me. Don't get me wrong, I actually don't have anything against him. Or maybe I do? However, I just keep telling myself it's the jealousy speaking out of me. I mean, let's be honest. The way Cassandra looks at him? Of course she still has feelings for him.

"Oy, I'm talking to you, man!", I groaned while grabbing his arm and sending him an annoyed glare. What the fuck was wrong with him? He still didn't look up to me and kept staring on the ground. "Fuck off, Ben. I'm not in the mood", he hissed. Without even giving me a chance to retort something, he broke free from my grip and rushed off.

"Fucking wanker", I muttered to myself as I watched him walk away. A sigh escaped my throat while I ran my fingers through my dirtyblonde hair. Something was up and I could already tell I wouldn't like it. I turned around and entered the tour bus, seeing my girlfriend sitting in Oli's bunk. "Cass?", I asked confused but she didn't seem to hear me. It was as if she was in another dimension, far away from reality. "Can you hear me? Hey, babe?", I murmured softly while I walked up to her. As soon as the matress slightly shifted because I sat down next to her, she winced. I gently touched her arm. She tensed up but as soon as she looked up to me and realized who I was, she seemed to calm down again.

"Oh, Ben.. it's you", she muttered faking a crooked smile. "What happened, Cass?", I asked softly. She turned her head to the side and chewed on her bottom lip. "I just saw Oliver rushing off the bus..", I sighed. At the mention of his name, her body slightly tensed up again. She still didn't tell me anything. "Fuck, Cassie", I breathed, grabbing her hands and squeezing them slightly. "Did he hurt you?", I asked obviously pissed. And if he even touched a single hair, I swear to god he should run for his fucking life. Cassie's head spun to me and her eyes widened in shock. "What? No! No, he didn't. I...", she replied quickly.

"Cass. Just tell me what's wrong, please", I mumbled, calming down a bit. "Nothing. We just had a fight", she replied as she shook her head. I could tell there was more behind it though. I figured it would be no use to ask her again, she clearly didn't want to tell me what's up. "Ben? Would you do me a favor?", she muttered, shifting on the matress slightly. "Could you please look after him?", she demanded, cocking her head to the side.

I raised an eyebrow at her. "I know you're not best friends. I'm just worried about him. I mean... you know why", she sighed, turning her head to the side again. "He wouldn't listen to me, Ben. But I don't think it's a good idea if he's alone right now", she mumbled. She worried about him. But she was also lying to me. She wasn't telling me the whole truth, I wasn't that stupid.

"Of course, babe. Leave it to me", I faked a smile and pecked her forehead. "Don't worry, okay? I'll be right back", I whispered into her hair and pulled her into a hug. After she nodded, I stood up and left the tour bus again.

I didn't care if it was jealousy speaking out of me, I hated Oliver to the guts.

Oliver's POV:

I just walked. I didn't have a clue where to, I just wanted to leave. I had to get away. Away from Ben. He was the last person I wanted to see right now. Away from Cass. Away from this living nightmare. Was I really that naive? What did I expect? That she'd actually still love me? "Fucking hell, Oliver! You stupid, pathetic bastard!!", I shouted at myself, kicking a soda can that was lying on the ground. I ruffled my hair, sitting down on the ground.

All I wanted was this to be over. This whole miserable excuse of my life.

Actually, no. All I wanted was to turn the time back. I wished Cass would've said "Yes" back at the concert. Or that I wouldn't have asked her to marry me. I wanted to have her back, I wanted to be able to hold her again.

But let's be honest, what was more realistic? You've guessed it. All of this is nonsense. What was I doing here? Telling everyone I was fine when I clearly wasn't. Hearing them pitying me when they obviously didn't know anything that was going on.

I had no idea how long I've been sitting here. It must've been forever though as it was already in the middle of the night. "Oliver", I heard a familiar voice behind me. I didn't feel the urge to turn around though. "I told you to fuck off, Ben", I snapped.

Suddenly he grabbed me by the colar, pulling me up. "Listen here, you little shit", he hissed sending me a death glare. "I just want to beat the crap out of you right now", he muttered dangerously calm. A coldhearted chuckle escaped my throat. "Nobody is going to hold you back. Go on", I smirked at him.

He raised his fist and it collided with my nose, making it crack with an disgusting sound. I wiped away the blood with my sleeve, laughing softly. "Is that all you got?", I asked and Ben rolled his eyes. "Don't beg for it, stupid", he groaned. "Let's get back to the bus", he sighed, shoving his hands into his jeans pockets. I raised an eyebrow. I had sex with his girlfriend and that was all he'd do? A punch to the face and that was it? "What are you waiting for? Want another punch?", he sighed as he turned around and started to walk.

"If you hate me that much, why don't you just do it? You want to beat the crap out of me, so what's up with that big mouth of yours?", I shrugged rather annoyed, trying to stop the bleeding from my nose. "I'm only doing this for Cassandra is all", he mumbled softly, looking up to the sky. "She didn't tell you, did she?", I mumbled. To my surprise, he didn't show any reaction but shrugging his shoulders. "No, she didn't", he simply said.

"I know there's something up but I don't care, to be honest", he chuckled, shaking his head. "Because nothing I'll ever do will make Cass love me. And most important, nothing will make her forget you, Oli. So it's just none of my business", he muttered.