Help me find a way to breathe [Oli Sykes FF]

Chapter 25

First of all: On monday I was in Stuttgart and I saw BMTH and Pierce The Veil live. It was probably one of the best experiences I've ever made. I saw them both live before at Rock im Park. I already went to two music festivals but I never actually went to a clubshow so it was kinda new to me. But it was fucking awesome. I got pushed forwards because of a moshpit and suddenly I found myself almost first row (it was actually the third) and I was so close to Lee and Oli and oh my god I screamed my fucking lungs out, I almost cried I swear to god <3 The evening was simply perfect.

Now since I don't write any class tests in the next few days and I don't have any homework today, I decided to update at least one chapter, maybe two or even three. Depends on how much I am motivated lol. But I'll try to make them long for you, so don't worry.

This chapter is dedicated to @1D_loves_your_face

I want to thank every single one of you though for all your votes and comments and messages. Your support is what keeps this stories alive, not me writing them. So whenever some of you tell me how great a chapter turned out to be or that I'm a good writer I just think: That's thanks to your guy's support. Without that, I wouldn't even put that much effort into it. I'm really glad you enjoy my stories and your way of showing that to me makes my days brighter c: Thank you all, you rock!

Song for this chapter is Why - Kill Devil Will. And now enjoy this chapter please <3 Make sure to vote and comment! I love you guys :3

Cassandra's POV:

On the next day things got even more awkward. Hard to believe, right? I got out of my bunk and went right into the bathroom so I could get myself ready. I changed into black skinny jeans and some Linkin Park shirt along with my favorite pair of creepers before applying some makeup and brushing through my hair real quick. After I finished, I got out of the bathroom again and went back to the bunkroom.

As usually I was the first to get up, the guys are just a bunch of bloody morning grouches. But this time I wasn't the only one to be up before eleven in the morning. I closed the door behind me and turned my head to Oliver who was just getting out of his bunk. "Oh.. morning", I muttered and bit on my tongue immediately afterwards.

He looked up to me with a look that was kind of sleepy but rather tired. Not because it was early in the morning but you could tell he was fed up with everything. It was almost like back in highschool. Just that he was more angry and frustrated than sad and helpless. "Morning", he mumbled with his slightly raspy morning voice, not even looking at me.

It was horrible. It was what I've been trying to avoid, the reason why I didn't want to go back to everyone. But I knew it had to come to this eventually. I knew it would be very awkward but it was worse than I expected.

What was I supposed to do? Should I say something? But what?

Yet just standing there and doing nothing was just as awkward as trying to start a conversation. The silence was unbearable uncomfortable and after what seemed like forever, Oli stood up and grabbed a hoodie. "I'll be in the bathroom", he said and I stepped aside so he could leave the bunkroom.

After I heard him close the door, a shaky sigh escaped my lips. It really hurt to see him like this. So numb and sick of everything. But it hurt even more knowing I was the reason. He was sick of me, fed up with me. I bet I was the last person he wanted to see. Who could blame him though?

Ben's voice interrupted my thoughts. "Whoa, already awake, babe?" He walked up to me and wrapped his arms around my waist, pulling me into a kiss. I faked a smile and returned the favor. "Seems like it", I chuckled, placing my hands on his shoulders. "So what's up for today?", I asked my boyfriend and he shrugged.