Secret Seduction | [R-18]

Chapter Fourteen

"Don't you use that card on me. Tapos na ko'ng maawa sayo."

"I'm a coward for not telling you how I feel from the start."

Both our voices overlapped each other. Tinignan ko siya habang nakakunot ang noo ko. I could only scoff at what he said.

"You probably won't take me back after all I've done." napakahawak siya sa batok niya. "God, I was such an asshole."

"Damn, right." sabi ko at umakmang aalis pero nagsalita siya ulit. Why do I keep on hearing him?

"Just listen to me, last na. I just want to tell you the truth because... you deserve it."

"If you're about to manipulate me one more time, gugupitin ko yang-"

"I'm not." he cut me off and gestured if he could speak. Napailing ako sa sarili ko. You're so stupid, Drey.

"I like you, a lot. Hindi ka maniniwala, alam ko. But, I don't know. I've watched you from afar, I saw you when you had everything and when you had nothing. You lost almost everything and you're still standing. It caught my eye, Andrea."

Napatigil siya nang makita niyang bumuka ang bibig ko pero hindi ko na tinuloy yung sasabihin ko. A part of me wanted to believe him and the other wants this to be over with.

"You're right, I'm a coward. I didn't want to tell you that I like you because you made it so fucking clear that you didn't want me anymore." he rolled his eyes out of embarrassment.

"Masaya ako na nakausap kita noong ininvite niyo kami sa inuman. I'm a mess, not that it's an excuse, so I had to blackmail you in literally everything. I thought maybe if you showed how you hated me so much I'd dislike you, too. It's stupid, I know. Mas lalo pa kitang nagustuhan nang makasama kita. Imbis na mainis ako na naiinis ka saakin, ginamit ko yun."

Napatalikod siya para huminga ng malalim. I heard him sigh out of frustration as he massaged his temples.

"I'm really fucking sorry about it, I am. I wouldn't even forgive me, I promise I regret it more than everything."

"I don't." iwas ko'ng tingin sakanya. Ang rupok mo, tanga. "So you could move on with the apology kasi... gumagabi na." sabi ko at tinignan yung paligid. I checked my time and it was just 5:00.

"As I said, I'm a mess, you can see it too. Na open ko pa nga yung darkest secret ng pamilya ko sayo eh." he awkwardly smiled. "But then you touched my face and I could feel how you were starting to like me, not just for sex. I didn't want to bring you closer to me because, I don't know, I'm fucked up. I threatened you so that you'd have sex with me. Pinilit kitang magpanggap na maging girlfriend ko kahit na alam ko yung ginawa ko sayo. I even-" he paused and looked up, I guess not wanting to cry.

"I even accused you of cheating on me, kahit hindi tayo. What kind of a psychopath am I? I'm a monster, I know. Everyone noticed it when I was younger, not that you care." pinutol ko yung tuloy tuloy niyang pagsasalita para maglabas ng tanong.