Secret Seduction | [R-18]

Chapter Twenty Six

 

Valentine's day na bukas. I could feel my flat stomach was already changing. I didn't experience morning sickness at all. I think I just vomited once because of the smell of pancit canton.

Nagkausap kami ni Louie tungkol kay Justin. Iniyakan ko siya. I felt safe, not judged. He became a friend to me and I appreciate it very much. Siya palang ang nakakaalam na buntis ako. I've already used the money Justin gave me. Buti naman naisipan ko'ng tipirin. Kung hindi, mangangawawa kami ng anak ko.

After my talk with Louie, narealize ko na hindi ko dapat ipalaglag yung anak ko. Hindi rin ako sigurado kung gusto ko siya ipaampon. Lately, it has been my motivation of doing better. It was like I didn't want him or her to be disappointed at me.

I'm sorry, anak. I shouldn't have said all those words to you. I learned my lesson and I will try to be a better mom for you. Hindi pa kita nakikita pero bakit parang kilalang kilala na kita. I held my stomach as I ate snacks.

"We'll get through this, baby." sabi ko habang nakatingin sa baba. Muntik na ko mahulog sa inuupuan ko nang marinig ko yung boses ni Troy.

"You're pregnant."

"H-Huh? Pinagsasabi mo? Why are you even here?" I asked as I swallowed the food I was eating.

"I came to finally to talk to you. But we're not pushing through unless you tell me the truth." matigas na sabi ni Troy. It's been a while since I saw him be tough. Lagi siyang nagpapatawa at pinapasaya kami pero iba yung awra ngayon.

"I'm not. Safe sex, Troy." I tilted my head to the side, pinipilit na mali siya. He looked a me suspiciously,

"I think you're lying."

"I'm not."

"You are, Drey. Justin never liked condoms and he always brags about how 'pull out' method works. Don't lie." his arms crossed and he gave off a rough look. I saw his jaw clench softly as I sigh.

"I am. But you can't tell anyone." I couldn't keep it a secret for so long. Hindi ko na rin kaya maging mag isa na nakakaalam dito. I trust Troy.

"You always avoid eye contact when you lie." he said, still being rough. Huling beses ko siyang nakitang ganito ay noong galit siya saamin nila Cha.

"Bakit hindi mo sabihin kay Justin?" tanong niya. Another question I didn't want to answer.

"I saw how he beat you to the ground till you bled. Now's not the time to tell him." iling ko. He sighed and sat in front of me. I finally met him eye-to-eye. Namiss ko siya, sa totoo lang. Hindi ko siya nabisita sa ospital dati dahil wala naman magandang maidudulot yun saamin.

"I'm sorry, Drey. Kasalanan ko to. It's me to blame, I'm so sorry." napahilamos siya sa mukha niya. It was easier to be mad at him but I couldn't. Si Justin yung hindi nakinig saakin. Troy was just confused and the kiss didn't mean anything.

"You know I don't blame you. It's fine. It's been, what, two months? Naka move on na ang lahat." I tried to convince him. He gave a look of doubt.

"Moved on? You're fucking pregnant." he whispered. "You're gonna carry the baby without its father?"

"I appreciate your concerns but it's my child. Ako na ang bahala. Since you know that you owe me, I trust you'll keep this a secret from everyone. Pati kay Sierra at Cha." I looked straight into his eyes so he knows I wasn't kidding.