Secret Seduction | [R-18]

Chapter Twenty Four

ANDREA

"Aalis ka na?" tanong ni coach Ana habang nakapwesto ako sa sofa niya kasama ang bag ko. Isang buwan na simula noong camping. I felt alone most of the time kaya umuuwi ako tuwing weekend.

I tried my best to forget Justin. Sinubukan ko'ng magalit dahil sa ginawa niya. Sinubukan ko'ng gumising ng hindi hinihintay yung tawag niya. Sinubukan ko'ng matulog ng walang goodnight text. Lumayo ako sa mga kaibigan ko para hindi na siya makita.

It's a travesty trying to forget the man I've been the happiest with since my dad died.

"Sino ba yang ex mo na yan? Lulunurin ko talaga siya pag nakita ko." tawa ni coach at tinabihan ako.

"Last ko na 'tong weekend dito coach. The whole point of living with the girls was to lessen food on your plate." I pouted as I realized how much trouble I brought.

"Hindi ka naman pabigat, ano ka ba?" mahinang tulak saakin ni coach. "Kapag kailangan mo ng kausap, i chat mo na kasi yung nakasama natin sa simbang gabi."

She was talking about Louie Sarmiento from grade 12 STEM. Nakasama namin siya sa simbang gabi. I only attended 5 services dahil may school pa. It wasn't in my will, sinama lang ako ni coach dahil matagal na daw ako'ng nagmumukmok.

"Kaibigan ko lang yun, ano ka ba coach?" sabi ko habang nilalakad niya ako palabas. Naalala ko yung time na pinagseselosan siya ni Justin when we were fake dating. It made me smile in pain.

"I'll text you when I get home." I kissed her cheek before leaving. Ganito pala magmahal ng totoo. It didn't hurt like this with my past flings.

"Hey, I cooked something." ngumiti si Steph pagka dating ko. They were all in the kitchen, staring at me. I didn't have the appetite kaya nakipagbeso nalang ako sakanila.

"Miss na kita makasama tuwing weekends. Inom naman tayo." bulong ni Cha saakin. Demonyo talaga to eh. Alak nanaman ang nasa isip.

"I've been giving Justin a hard time, just so you know." Sierra winked at me.

"Magbibihis lang ako. I'm attending the afternoon mass in the Cathedral." I smiled at them.

   I went to church since coach mentioned it. Eto na rin siguro yung magpapagaan ng loob ko. To be honest, I wanted Louie to be there. Gusto ko lang may makausap na hindi alam yung nangyari.

I needed to stop looking at someone who reminded me of my days with Justin. My sheets remind me of him. The sofa, the dining table, the dirty kitchen, even the fucking refrigerator had a memory with him.

Hindi ako masyado nakafocus sa mass. I just thought about my projects overlapping my thoughts with Justin. I didn't even think of how he raped me that night. I didn't want to see him now but I wanted to go back to when we were happy.

  "Hey." halos mahulog ako sa hagdan nang makita si Louie sa harap ko. Napatingin lang ako sakanya ng matagal. He was here.

"Hindi na kita nakita after simbang gabi. Pati sa building ng STEM, hindi na rin kita nahahagilap." he pouted. He was exactly what I need right now. Distraction.

"Sorry, hindi naman ako religious eh." nahihiya ko'ng sagot. Napatingin ako sa gilid nang hindi siya sumagot. Naiwan pala siya sa may hagdan.