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lucifer || shake it out

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Regrets collect like old friends

Here to relive your darkest moments

I can see no way, I can see no way
And all of the ghouls come out to play

And every demon wants his pound of flesh
But I like to keep some things to myself
I like to keep my issues drawn
It's always darkest before the dawn

Luci shakes you awake, a worried look in his eyes. "(Y/N)? Are you okay?" You gaze at him, wide-eyed and confused. "You were screaming," he says. "Really loudly. Are you okay?"

You bite your lower lip. You can't tell him why you were screaming, what your nightmare was about. It's horrible. Some things just need to be kept to yourself.

And I've been a fool and I've been blind
I can never leave the past behind
I can see no way, I can see no way
I'm always dragging that horse around
All of his questions such a mournful sound
Tonight I'm gonna bury that horse in the ground
Cause I like to keep my issues drawn
But it's always darkest before the dawn

You've made mistakes in your life and you're not afraid to admit that. But you are scared to face them head-on. And the worst part is that no one knows but you. Every day is an internal battle. Either way, you lose.

Shake it out, shake it out
Shake it out, shake it out, ooh whoa
Shake it out, shake it out
Shake it out, shake it out, ooh whoa
And it's hard to dance with a devil on your back
So shake him off, oh whoa

You need to let it go, but you don't know how to do that without confessing. And you can't confess.

And I am done with my graceless heart
So tonight I'm going to cut it out and then restart
Because I like to keep my issues drawn
It's always darkest before the dawn

So you tell Luci, "Nothing. It was just a nightmare." Because a small part of you hopes that the nightmares will go away and that you can pretend that era of your life never happened.

Shake it out, shake it out
Shake it out, shake it out, ooh whoa
Shake it out, shake it out
Shake it out, shake it out, ooh whoa
And it's hard to dance with a devil on your back
So shake him off, oh whoa (shake him off)

"You're lying," Luci says sadly. You freeze. How does he know? "I know when people are lying," he says, reading your mind.

And it's hard to dance with a devil on your back
Shake him off
And given half the chance, would I take any of it back
Shake him off
It's a fine romance but it's left me so undone
Shake him off
It's always darkest before the dawn

"I tried to hunt you," you whisper. "I wanted to kill you. Because your demons killed my parents." 

Luci blinks, surprised. You're sure he wasn't expecting that. 

"And I don't regret it, because it changed me. It made me better at what I do. It made me mature. And eventually, I met you. Yeah, it was bad at first. But it's always darkest before the dawn."

And I'm damned if I do and I'm damned if I don't
So here's to drinks in the dark at the end of my rope
And I'm ready to suffer and I'm ready to hope
It's a shot in the dark aimed right at my throat
Because looking for heaven, found the devil in me
Looking for heaven, found the devil in me
Well, why the hell did I let it happen to me?

You wait for Luci to answer. This relationship is over. It has to be. How will he put up with you after this? Tears blossom in your eyes. You tried to kill him, the man you now love, so that you would feel at peace. It was horrible. And you unveiled your dark side through that. You said you didn't regret it, but a part of you does, because your relationship is ruined.

You wait for him to answer; he just blinks at you.

And finally he speaks. "We all make mistakes, love. I forgive you." He leans forward and kisses your temple, then rolls over and goes back to sleep. And you should feel some relief, but you don't.

Shake it out, shake it out
Shake it out, shake it out, ooh whoa
Shake it out, shake it out
Shake it out, shake it out, ooh whoa
And it's hard to dance with a devil on your back
So shake him off, oh whoa
Shake it out, shake it out
Shake it out, shake it out, ooh whoa
Shake it out, shake it out
Shake it out, shake it out, ooh whoa
And it's hard to dance with a devil on your back
So shake him off, oh whoa