DO I LIKE YOU?

Too Late.

Hey.

for almost 3 years i was there for you.
you ; were there 2 and a half.
you tell me you miss me now but when i left
did you miss me? did you try to stop me from
leaving? did you even care?

you know what? you messed me up real bad.
you ruined how i act towards other guys.
i trusted you.
i fell for you.
i lov--okay maybe not you, but the idea of you.

i hate myself because i dont hate you.
i hate myself because i know you're only reaching out to me again because you're alone again.

and mostly.....i hate myself because i know if you tried harder to reach out to me, i would come back to you.

maybe now, you finally realised that i was there for you. that you miss having someone who really listened to you, gave you advice, put all her attention on you. i let you in my life. i put my guard down for you.

but im sorry, i dont think i can bring back what's lost. i don't want to anymore. you didn't appreciate me.

im not going to lie. i did MISS you before. but now i don't. you're 25 minutes too late with your "i miss you".

even though you've caused me hurt, i hope you're well. i hope you find someone like me again.

but i deserve better.