RoomMates

the best medicine for the lovesick: Friends

A/N: BY THE WAY MIGHT I JUST SAY THAT MARK AND JACK HIT MILESTONES WHILE I DIDNT UPDATE AND I'M SO PROUD OF THEM, they deserve every single subscriber they have.

This book is slowly coming to an end, and no I don't mean it's ending in a few chapters but sure as hell is ending in the next month and a half (depending on how often I update and if I take a break to figure it all out).

Enjoi my beautiful beans, and feel free to let me know how your day was and tell me all your problems. I love making people happy and I love writing so eat your heart out peoples.

Mark's Pov

Fe' and I were at a nearby park. After asking him if I could talk privately with him, he agreed to let me and we walked around, somehow ending up here. After seeing how the other couples in the house worked out, I knew I had to confront Felix about telling Cry how he feels, leading to this moment in which I stood in.
"YOU NEED TO TELL HIM" "b-bu–" "–YOU NEED TO, no buts". I wasn't allowing him to win this battle. I was stubborn, and he was even more than me. "MARK YOU DON'T UNDERSTAND I CAN'T".
I look at him confusedly, raising my brow as he shouts in my face, obviously frustrated with me. "What don't I understand?". "I'm straight...". Bullshit. "oh really? Cause that's not what you said, not even--what...a few days ago? What about that 'hot guy' in American horror story?". "People change, Mark...". "What's making you say this all of a sudden, man? What happened that I don't know about?". He stayed silent, showing hesitation as he paced back and forth in front of me.
"Life". He looks me straight in the eye [i would make a straight joke but shits going down] "felix you know damn well that you're just in denial" "NOT EVERYONE IS LIKE YOU...not everyone is happy, not everyone is in love with their best friend and I am not in love with Cry...I'm straight".
He sat down next to me, putting his face in his hands before letting out a heavy sigh. I get up, standing in front of him.
"Fe'......don't let your dreams be dreams....just do it!....yesterday you said tomorrow....so make, Your dreams, come true!". I attemp to lighten the tension all the while trying to assure him that there was nothing wrong with him being himself and liking Cry.
"Mark...not the time" replies, not even cracking a smile. And as expected, It goes silent, so I take time to gather my thoughts before speaking again.
   "Hey, fe' I want you to be honest with me" I pause, sitting back down and thinking about what to say, "are you really straight?...It's okay to have doubts and I'll be your friend either way but i want you to be honest with yourself and think it through. Don't think about what others will think or what will happen, just focus on what you believe is true". [if only I had friends like Mark...]
He picks his head up, staring at me with watery eyes. "I-...I don't know anymore..." and he latches onto me without warning, crying into my shoulder.
"And that's perfectly fine Felix, it's okay to feel overwhelmed, it's okay to have emotions and talk about your feelings...I'm here for you" I say, comforting him as I pat his shoulder.
"Mark...I was fine with being bisexual, but lately I've just—I've just been down about it". I decide to not dig any deeper, at least not in the middle of a public park.

Felix's Pov
After seeing how perfect and happy Mark, Jack, Matt and Ryan are, and thinking about the fact that it more than likely won't happen to me just overwhelmed my happiness and good, positive thoughts. I look at how cute they are and how Cry doesn't seem at all feeling the same and It hurts.
No matter how much I try to keep the thoughts out of my mind it gets to me. So lately I've just been trying to ignore any and all of my feelings the best I can.
I cry into Mark's shoulder, just wanting to sleep and eat chocolate, but reluctantly pulling away. "Hey. want to go get a tub of ice cream and then we can go home? If you're worried about Cry, don't worry, I can just ask Jack to take him out to get groceries" "u-um...yeah, let's go". That sounds like the best thing I've heard all day, to be honest.

[for the first time in awhile I might update two days in a row...no promises though]