RoomMates

The realization (Part 3 of Ryan's Birthday)

A/N: I'm happy with how this chapter came out, the picture fits it perfectly, and I love the songs by Oh Wonder.
Don'chya agree?
<3 luv you, ENJOI!

Matts Pov
You cant stay in here all day, it's your best friends birthday, Matt. Go have some fun and fuck around-is what I kept telling myself, but I just couldn't seem to get out of bed.
My heart ached and my chest felt heavy. My legs didn't do what my mind told it to and all I could do was cry silently.
And of course, I was the one who was crying in my bedroom as my other friends were having fun in my living room.
I wanted to die in a ditch, not party my ass off.

But my annoying thoughts soon left my mind as the all too familiar message tone sounded.
I looks over as the message popped up on the screen. It was Felix.
Felix: Matt are ya done jerking off in there or wot? Ryan's about to open presents and I'd like everyone to come out here for mine.
Welp, I can't stay here for long, might as well not be rude.
So I put on my all too familiar fake smile, fixed myself in the mirror and left my bedroom.
    Thankfully i had no tear stains and it hadn't gotten to the point where my eyes were puffy but as I approached the group gathered around Ryan, a real smile appeared on my face.
     He looked so happy, and kind've like a druggy. But other than that he looked absolutely excited for this.
      I wonder what happened while I was gone.

Ryan's Pov:
[Wowewooweewooweewooo
*awesome flashback harp sounds*]
flashback
    After hearing the sound of his door shutting, I double checked to make sure he wasn't in the hallway.
    And once I saw it was all clear I said "Mark you are so dead to me right now" sternly.
    "what?!, I thought you wanted him to kiss you" and I sigh, my hands rubbing my eyes out of sress.
"You just let not only Felix, Jack and Cry know. But maybe even Matt!" And Mark was quick to shut up, not feeding his remark as they sat in silence.
Luckily it finally broke as Jack gave a heavy sigh, "Ryan...we already knew you liked Matt. I mean, it was pretty obvious. you guys nearly kissed on the living room floor for fucks sakes" as they nodded in agreement.
"You blush when around him, and I've never seen you frown around him" Mark adds.
  He was right, it was pretty obvious. I facepalm and nod slowly, my face reddening as the other guys chuckle at my embarrassment.
"Wait a sec, what was that things about kissing on a floor?" Felix asks, changing the subject as Cry and him give me confused looks.
"Long story short one of us tripped and knocked the other person on the floor, ending me and Matt inches away from kissing until these numbskulls had to fucking interupt us" he answers, as I sit down next to him.
"Well, sorrrrryyy if i am a loud mouth. I thought Mark would only be able to hear it, but I guess he didn't turn down his volume".
Mark raised his hands in surrender.
"We shouldn't be blaming people, I mean. He just kissed you when he didn't need to. You didn't kiss him. He kissed you" and I was as red as a tomato as I realized he was right.    
    He kissed me before I could kiss him. But what is that supposed to mean?!.