Inside | Shane Harte

22 | I'm not mad... Just annoyed

"So, do you want to go back to the others with me?" Trevor asks me when we exit the studio. We trained for about half an hour before Dave told us that we were good for the day.

"Sure" I smile and we walk back among the hallway and into the classroom. My first instinct is to search for Shane with my eyes. I get annoyed by myself while continuing to look for him. Eventually I state that he's not in the room anymore.

I really need to stop thinking about him all the time. And when I don't, I turn my thoughts into something about him anyway. Stop Kayla, it's annoying.

I just hope that he forgets about the kisses between us, considering that we live under the same roof and it would be really awkward if it was brought up again.

"So, where have you guys been then?" Theo, one of the rock people asks when we reach the table Trevor was witting at earlier. Some people around us cheer and laugh while I just smile and politely wave it off.

"I just need to go to the bathroom, be right back" I say and Trevor nods while trying to shut down some morons mocking us.

I walk out of the classroom and further down the hallway towards the bathrooms. When I turn left to walk into one of the bathrooms, I discover something rather surprising in the other end of the hallway.

Shane and Bridget are standing by one of the walls, full-on making out. She is more harsh than he is but he certainly lets her. My heart drops the second I see them. This is too much to handle for today, I think for myself, and turn back towards the classroom.

Trevor, Theo and Crystal are standing outside the classroom door casually talking and I just walk straight past them. I speed up the pase to avoid talking to them, right now I just... Need some air.

Not really knowing where I'm headed at, I just walk and walk until a door appears with a big sign on it saying 'EXIT'. I take a deep breath and open the door to find an outdoor space with some chairs and tables. I sit down on one of the chairs.

Why would Shane do something like this? Well, I have been warned that this is just what he does with all girls... It doesn't matter how much I want to cry right now, I hold back the tears. He would win if I cried.

What's the matter with me? How old am I, like, 12? I can't possibly like him this much after just a couple of kisses... And I really don't understand how I ever could believe that he felt the very least interest in me. It makes me feel stupid to even think that.

Suddenly, the door fly open, interrupting my thoughts. Out walks Crystal with a curious look on her face.

"Kayla, why are you out here all alone? What happened?"

"Um, I went to the bathroom to see Shane and Bridget there. They were... Kissing" I tell her, trying not to show her too much emotion when pronouncing the word 'kissing'. The acoustic people just seem so careless, I really wish I was the same as them. I don't want to care as much as I do, but I can't stop.

"I must say, it doesn't surprise me, but it's still... Kind of weird" she says with a compassionate look on her face. "Shane has been acting strange when we've talked about you or when you've been around lately. He's like stood up for you if someone has said something mean or something, and now he does this. I guess that I don't understand him as good as I thought I did"

"So, what do you think I should do?" I ask while picking nervously on my fingers.

"Girl, he's not worth your attention" she answers and we both giggle. "Come on, we still have one more lesson"

I nod and follow her back inside the building. Okay, I need to have a steady plan for this to work. I'm going to pretend that I didn't see Shane and Bridget and pray that they didn't see me. I just want to forget the whole thing including Shane.

The last period rolls on quickly and I just focus 100% to get my mind off of things. It actually works and it feels like it's only an hour later that I'm standing outside his car with crossed arms. What I didn't think about when I made my plan to forget about him was that I needed to endure a long car drive twice a day with the asshole.

It only takes a few minutes before I see him walking up to the car with a neutral look on his face. He doesn't say anything, or make any sound at all. He doesn't even look at me once.

The tense silence lasts during the whole carride home, and when it's only about 5 minutes left I start thinking why. Did Crystal tell him that I saw what happened between him and Bridget? No, she wouldn't, would she?

Finally, the car pulls up on the driveway and stops abruptly. I climb out of the vehicle and Shane slams the car door shut, making me jump. I'm just about to shout at him but he's already halfway to the house. He's storming all the way to the front door which he opens, walks in and slams it shut as well after himself.

"Um... Okay?" I say to myself, feeling completely weirded out by the situation. Shouldn't it be me who act like that?

When I open the front door I find Stefan and Isabel standing in the hall with a confusing look on their faces. I sigh.

"Where did he go?" I ask them and they point towards the stairs. Am I really taking this conversation with him right now? Well, my legs have already started walking so I guess I am.