Inside | Shane Harte

38 | It's a comedy

(Shane's  POV)

Fuck, I can't bear the thought of, once again, hurting the person that means the world to me. Every cell in my body is telling me to run after her as fast as I can while my mind is forcing me not to. It's a never ending struggle between my heart and my mind and I have to pick a side.

I clench my jaw and punch a tree as hard as I can. The anger is just pouring over the edge like a way too full glass of water. I sit down on the bench and look out over the city. Sometimes I wonder why I didn't leave here. I could be happier somewhere else, anywhere else, really.

At the same time I know that I would never be able to do that. Not after everything that I've done, everyone that I've hurt. It would be the second worst thing that I've ever done after what I did to my mum. I would just prove to my dad that he's been right all along, that I'm a coward who runs away from his problems.

I stand up and jump into the car. I need to get away from here, as far as possible.

(Kayla's POV)

"Mother? Are you there?" I ask, tears streaming down my cheeks as I walk my way through the woods.

"Kayla, darling! What's going on?"

"I, uh, I want the dorm room b-back"

"My dear... Of course sunshine. I'll give them a call immediately"

"Thanks" I sob. We hang up and I text Crystal asking to come and get me while walking towards the road.

The ride back to Shane's house is completely silent in the beginning. Crystal obviously notices that something's terribly wrong so it takes a good few minutes before she says anything at all.

"So, do you want to talk about it?" she asks, still looking at the road ahead of us. I consider it for a while but finally decide to keep it to myself. I'm too ashamed that I ever believed that anything between me and Shithole was real.

"... No, I'd rather not" I say quietly, and she nods while giving me a small, compassionate smile.

The situation creates a clear awkward vibe that lasts all day, all the time until the next day. It's now sunday and not the best day for a move-in to a dorm but I don't care. I need to get him, his family and the house out of my sight as fast as possible even though I really liked both Stefan and Isabel.

It was a really sad goodbye too, and I could tell that they were confused. Neither I nor Shane have told anyone what happened between us, all everyone know is that we've broken up. I think that it's better that way to avoid judging or trash talk, mostly against me.

When I get inside my old dorm room it's a matter of seconds before Crystal's arms are around my neck. I'm really glad that mother let me live with her, even though she didn't like it one bit. I close my eyes and dig my face into Crystal's shirt with tears burning behind my eyelids.

"It's okay Kayla, I promise I will take good care of you" she says kind of sarcastically but I know she means well, so I laugh a little.

"Thank you so much, I don't know what to do with myself right now. I've never felt this feeling before, it's awful" I say with a single tear streaming down my cheek.

"Oh, my lil' sweet pie... I know what always works" she smiles and pulls away from the long hug to start digging in her bag. It only takes a moment until she finds what she's been looking for and holds it up in front of me.

"Seriously? Movie tickets?" I smile with an asking look.

"It's a comedy!" she exclaims proudly and I laugh. "See, the movie hasn't even started yet and you're already laughing!"

"I have a job" I tell her with a small smile.

"Well, take the day off then. You can't work and make other people happy if you're not even happy yourself" she smiles and I sigh.

"Okay then. Let's watch the fricking movie"

"Yay! This will be so much fun" she squeals and I laugh and shake my head.