Inside | Shane Harte

46 | You've done enough

The next few days pass by as one and before I know it it's already friday. It went really well when I told the rest of the acoustic department, and they decided to dedicate my last week here to me.

Some people have even acted like my slaves by carrying my food tray in the dining hall, do my school work for me and even carry me to places so I don't have to walk. I didn't have a say in the matter, either.

Of course, most of it has been for fun but it's also been because they truly want to show me that I will be missed. You grow close very fast in college, that's one thing that's for sure no matter what college you go to.

My flight to Ottawa heads off tomorrow and for that reason everyone on the acoustic department have thrown together a goodbye party for me. I'm now in the dorm room getting ready and Crystal tries not to interfere too much. Tries.

"You're not gonna wear that, are you?" she asks me with a scared look on her face. I look down at my t-shirt and knee high jeans.

"What? What's wrong with this?" I ask her innocently and her eyes widen.

"Are you serious? You're going to go to a party dedicated to you dressed like Madonna's mother?" she exclaims with a noticeable fear in her voice. "Oh lord give me strength"

I burst out laughing and her face changes into a 'really?'-look before putting her hands on her waist. I shake my head and take off my shirt again.

"Just kidding. Do you have anything more... Fitting for me to wear?" I ask and she lets out a sigh of relief.

"Oh my god, I thought you'd never ask"

We laugh as she looks among the dresses in her closet. She eventually finds a beautiful, black lace dress with long, see-through sleeves and hands it over to me.

"Wow, it's beautiful" I smile and she nods.

"It's a perfect fit for you"

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Later we arrive at the frat house. Loud music pumps out from the building and I bet there's just as many people outside as there are inside. I must admit; I'm a little disturbed that my goodbye party is at the one person in the world that I truly hate's house but I should really just be glad that they even arranged it at all.

When I heard about this party I instantly decided that I'm going to drink so much that I lose the pain that's almost been killing me since I first experienced it. Right when we step inside the house I grab a red cup that someone just filled up and pour it all down my throat at once. It burns all the way down to my stomach, causing my eyes to slightly tear up.

"You're going all in tonight, aren't you?" Crystal laughs and I give her a serious nod before refilling the cup with redbull and vodka. She then grabs me by the arm and pulls me off to the rock people's usual table by the couch.

Shane's standing right next to the couch with crossed arms and he doesn't look any happier when he sees me. I don't give a shit about what he thinks about me drinking, so I pour my whole drink down my throat once again. He narrows his eyes at me and I roll mine at him.

"So, how about some truth or dare?" Crystal asks and everybody cheers with their cups in the air. "Kayla, truth or dare?"

"Dare" I smirk and she looks at Theo.

"Give Theo a hot lapdance"

Everybody screams 'oh shit' and 'damn' and so on, probably because they know about the situation between me and Shane. I lift an eyebrow and walk up to Theo with determined steps.

I then slowly walk around him while caressing his shoulders, teasing and giving him flirty looks. Eventually I lean in, close to his face, and sit down on his lap.

My legs find their way around the chair with him in between while I put my hands around his neck. My body starts moving back and forth against him while I lean in close to his face, so close that our lips nearly touch, and then I pull away again and stand up.

I help spreading his legs and slowly run my hands from his knees to the sides of his waist, before sitting down in his lap again. My butt is facing him this time and I move it slowly across his stomach and legs until I finally decide to end the dance.

Everyone cheers and claps their hands and I smile cockily, feeling the alcohol take over completely.

"Damn girl, you've got some moves!" Crystal screams and I laugh. Suddenly, in my euphoric feeling of joy I randomly look over at Shane who's just about to grab a red cup filled with something. I throw myself at him in pure instinct, grab the cup and drink up the content right in front of him.

"You don't get to do that to me. You've done enough" I growl. He looks at me with annoyed eyes but doesn't say anything, so I just walk back to the table where the game has continued. I try to focus but I just can't.

Why did I really do what I just did? I've never been treated as bad as I have of him and still I can't stop caring about him. I feel so stupid still caring for someone like him, but I just can't sit by and watch as he hurts himself, no matter what he's done to me. I just can't.