Love Cuts

Chapter 26 ~ Try

Nandito ako ngayon sa condo ni Eyme.

Ako, Si Yvonne, Si Eyme, Si Patricia at Si Alexei lang ang nandito.

Calming me...

Comforting me...

We even drink this whiskey for pete's sake!

"What's with that fucking dork asshole jerk?! I woke up one day chasing him, liking him... And then weeks after he confess and in just a day he courted me...After a month of wooing we became a couple... Months after he said those was just all fucking lies! FUCK HIM! FUCK HIS LIFE! FUCK THIS DAMN FEELING! And then now he leaves acting like he's the one that been pained, hurted by someone he truly loves!" I shouted while drinking a glass of whiskey but after that fourth shot Eyme quickly hand herself the bottle of the whiskey and throw it away.

I tried to stop her but I couldn't.

Of course Patricia and others stopped me.

They don't like us drinking ourselves to hell.

I just stood up and went to the bed...And as usual they all follow me.

And with that I lost my consciousness.

Naramdaman ko na lang na bumigat ang talukap ng mga mata ko at unti unting napatulog.

I woke up with my head aching.

"Buti naman gising kana!" Someone exclaimed. By that voice I know it's Yvonne.

I can't see them or her clearly.

Unti-unting luminaw ang mata ko at nakita sila Yvonne na nasa pinto at si Alexei na may hawak na tray na may bowl, baso ng tubig at isang tableta ng paracetamol

Ibinigay niya saakin yon at ipinakain ang mushroom soup na laman ng bowl.

They're all so silent.

No one dare to speak nor smile...

And I just ate the soup they gave.

"Sarah..." I flinch at Eyme's voice.

I know Eyme... She's hiding something.

I'm her bestfriend... I know her too well.

What she's hiding is a secret. She never tell secrets she promised not to tell to anyone even her own bestfriend. That's why I'm thankful to be her bestfriend secret is secret whenever she's the one hiding it and protecting it from anyone who have a plan to spill it.

I've been with her since almost birth. But she's a big mystery.

Mystery that even me can't know or can't figure out whenever she kept a promise to secret what she knows.

Breakfast done, Lunch done when Sasuke texted me.

From: Mr Sasuke Sykes 

I heard the news... Can you meet me at Cups and Cakes? Please?

I sigh loudly... Will he stop making me remember the news about my torn pieces heart?

To: Mr Sasuke Sykes

For what?

From: Mr Sasuke Sykes

I just want to talk to you.

To: Mr Sasuke Sykes

I'm not in the mood.

From: Mr Sasuke Sykes

Please?

To: Mr Sasuke Sykes

I'm not feeling good. Please stop texting me.

From: Mr Sasuke Sykes

I Can make you feel better. I'm begging.

I sigh in defeat. and just text him.

To: Mr Sasuke Sykes

Ok.

"Sarah. Wag mong sabihing pupunta ka. " Malamig na wika ni Eyme na katabi ko sa kama habang sila Patricia ay nasa sala nanonood ng palabas.

"Eyme I just need some fresh air... This air is suffocating and it just reminds me of Fernando." I said gazing at my point fingers lingering at each other.

"You can. But we will not allow you to come alone... We'll coming with you but we'll stay at the side of your table." She said and didn't let me to utter a word because she left me and go out to talk tothe other girls.

I change my clothes white t-shirt and jeans and sunglasses.

I go out and they follow me until we reach Cups and Cakes.

They seat at the empty chair near Sasuke's table.

His face lit up seeing me.

Umupo na lang ako sa tapat niya.

Iced tea na lang ang inorder ko at pinagsalita na si Sasuke ng makabalik na kami sa condo.

Inihulog ko ang purse ko at tumingin sa ilalim ng lamesa.

Mautak talaga ang Amethyst na ito! They made sure na maririnig nila ang usapan may nakita kasi akong pamilyar na device amg nakakabit sa likod ng lamesa... Ang kaparehong device na ginamit namin noon mung Grade 5 kami para malaman ang Answer key sa test namin.

Mautak lang talaga si Eyme para mautusan ang waiter na idikit iyon sa ilalim ng lamesa ng hindi napapansin ni Sasuke.

"Hindi na ako magpapaligoy ligoy pa. Alam kong alam mo na gusto kita." Sabi niya matapos uminom ng guava juice.

"Pero mahal ko siya." I amswered na nakapagpakita ng sakit sa kaniyang mga mata.

"Sarah... I can love you more than he can."

Sasuke...Sorry...But for me...No one can love me more than he do.

And I hate it!

"I can't... I just can't. "

"Try me... I'm willing to catch you even if you don't want to fall for me..."

"Sarah..Try and Use me to forget him and I swear... Sasaluhin kita kahit ayaw mo na sakin ka mahulog at iba ang gusto mong sumalo sayo... I don't fucking care kung ako ang masasaktan. Ang mahalaga hindi ikaw nasasaktan." I love hearing those words but not in his...

I want those line to be said by the only man I love... My Prince, My King, My Beast, My Knight, My Man, My Love, My life, My FPJ... My Fernando.

But I can't and never will... Hear him say those words.

Should I give Sasuke a try?

Would it be worth the try?

Sasuke... I'm in deep deep fall. So deep that I can't even climb... I can't even think if I can rise and stand in my own feet again.

Tell me... How can I give you the try you're wishing for if I know to myself that... I'm so much in love and even he hurt me... I am still in his sweetest downfall.

So Tell me! How can I give you the try you're rooting for?

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Clue: Not all demons came with red horns and red cape, Some came disguising as an angel with yellow halo and all white dress.