Getting to know You (Oikawa Tooru )

Prologue

What you love becomes an important part of who you are. Sometimes it makes you stronger, it builds you up until you feel like you're on a pedestal. Other times it breaks you down until you feel like you're far under water.

You can't control how others think or feel or even what they do. You can influence those actions or thoughts or emotions but controlling them is completely out of the question. The only person that you can control the actions of is yourself. But when you think about it you can't control how you feel and sometimes you can't even control your own thoughts.

I learned this from seeing how dangerous the world is, from growing up watching the news and observing how people treated one another. It was cruel and unusual. There was love sure but there was also a lot of hate. The world is full of both, the line between the two so easy to cross and hard to return to the other side of.

I grew up like any other girl. I had friends I cared about, a family that loved me and an activity that I loved. But there was always that thought in the back of my mind that it wouldn't turn out right, that it would always be fake and what I thought was real would be a lie. Everyone thought I was pessimistic, other paranoid, but really I was just being cautious of the crazy world that we all called home.

These uncertainties I worried about built life. They stack up to create a world you fall in love with and never want to leave.

I searched for that answer for years in my life, wondering why people loved earth and the lives they lived, even thought they caused so much pain.

It took me awhile to see how beautiful this crazy and sometimes deranged world could be but I fell in love with it so fast and furiously that I questioned why I feared it in the first place.

And all it took was getting to know him.