I couldn't believe that my life had changed so drastically. I went from a nobody to a nigga that's living large and got it all. I got niggas wanting to be me and I definitely could have my share of hoes....but all I want is her. Bee saw me when nobo...
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Shawn's POV
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As I waited for Bee to get off the jet down on my one knee, my head was spinning. I was scared out of my mind and it was getting really hard for me to breathe. My palms had gotten extremely sweaty and I was thinking about actually getting up and walking away before she had a chance to see me make either the best choice of my life or the biggest mistake. I looked up and I saw here getting off the jet very hesitantly. As she walked towards me holding her hand over her mouth, my heart instantly let me know that this woman was my angel and held the key to my heart.
"Sha.....Shawn" She managed to stutter out.
"Beyonce Giselle Knowles, I have loved you since the moment I laid my eyes on you. There would have never been Jay the rapper without you and there would never have been a Shawn Corey Carter. Because see baby you made me a man. You made me realize that there is a God and he placed a beautiful angel on earth just for me. We have our share of arguments, but that small shit doesn't matter because at the end of the day, I know that it is you that I love and that we will make it past all the bad shit. I promised myself and Mike at his gravesite that day that I would marry you, and I am more than ready to fulfill that promise if you will give me a chance to be the best husband and eventually father that I can be." I said taking a deep breath and looking at the tears streaming down Bee's cheek. She walked closer to me and placed her hand on the top of my head and just stared into my eyes. My eyes begin to glisten because I had never thought that she would say no until just now.
"Baby, there's no need to rush things. This is not something that can be taken lightly." She said looking at me and I could tell that she was scared and needed my reassurance now more than anything. Bee did want to marry me, she was just a little nervous. I smiled at her and kissed her hand.
"Beyonce, I am not rushing anything. Each time I am away from you, I feel as if I am fighting to breathe. Once you walk into the room again, all of a sudden I can breathe and I feel alive. Every time I touch your skin or just hear your voice, my heart leaps for joy. You do some crazy shit to me that I can't even explain for real ma. If you tell me no I'm not going to lie and say I wouldn't be sad as hell; but I will live and I will wait because it gets no better than you. I watched you sleep on that jet and I tried to think of one reason to not propose and I came up with nothing. I'm here on one knee holding my breath waiting; give me a reason to exhale again." I said as tears begin to fall from my eyes. I waited and Bee stood there frozen. She begins to shake her head no and my stomach dropped and my throat constricted. I tried to hold back the tears that were burning my eyes. I dropped my head in defeat and let them fall. I was a broken man. The woman of my dreams isn't ready to commit on the same level that I am. I felt Bee put her hands on my face and force me to look up. She was now kneeling on the ground too.
