Invisible

Chapter 3: Another awful day

Blair's POV

"Sis, get up!"

I groaned, turning some more in my sheets. I didn't want morning to be here already. I didn't want school to be here already. I didn't want those people to be here already.

"Sis!"

I groaned and slowly got up. "I'm up!"

"Get ready!"

I sighed. Get ready. What for? School? Friends? That's not something I should/want to get ready for. I mean, you get ready for people you want to impress, or just to show you belong. Right?

But I don't want to impress anyone, I mean there's no one there to impress. Maybe the teachers, but still.

And I certainly don't belong anywhere. Well, only with Luke.

I sighed as I looked myself in the mirror, dressed. This was all for him. No, I wasn't in love with him. Stop thinking that, you creeps.

I did think about it, because I didn't want to make him feel awkward. I didn't want people to laugh at him because of me. And you know how cruel the world is, people would do that... Why? No idea.

"I'm here." I said as I sat down at the kitchen table.

Luke sat down too while presenting an omelet. "Here you go." He smiled at me as he also gave me my lunch.

I smiled. "Thanks, bro."

"Of course." He smiled as I put it away. "I hope they'll be good."

"As long as you make them, always."

He smiled.

"Now let's eat. This looks too good."

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"Ugh... I can't wait until we're home again."

Luke chuckled.

I looked at him. "What are you laughing at?"

He kept laughing while shaking his head no. "It's just funny to hear you like this, knowing this side of you."

I crossed my arms.

"You know, if you would show your true self, so many people would love to be your friend."

I uncrossed my arms slowly and looked away, out of the window.

"You're really an amazing person, and I just hate to see you alone all the time. Because you deserve more."

"Some people just don't belong, Luke."

He sighed deep, making me look at him. "Blair, come on, not again."

"It is the truth. And you know it."

He shook his head but didn't answer me anymore.

Eventually we arrived at school, he parked the car and got out. So did I. "Luke, I - "

"I heard you, Blair." He said and just left, without even looking back at me.

I sighed.

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So the rest of the school day went by, too slow. I mean I guess if you're sitting alone that it's normal that time passes slowly. You have no one to talk to, so...

And yeah, I mean no one. Not during class, not during lunch, not during breaks, never. I was just alone. And I kept on hoping for someone to talk to me.

I could go to someone, but they already have friends. I'd be like this weirdo that just forces herself onto people...

But now that I'm thinking of that, it also means that they wouldn't come to me. Because they already had friends... So it's basically useless.

I hate this, I hate not knowing what to do. I hate... I hate myself.

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"So," Luke said as we both entered the car, after school. "Let me guess, you were alone again."

I didn't look at him, I looked outside. I didn't want to talk about that to him anymore. He was only going to judge me. As always.

"I guess I was right, again." He sighed and started the car. "You know, Blair, you shouldn't be alone."

"I'm trying, ok?"

He glanced at me. "How?"

"I... I'm waiting for people to talk to me."

He shook his head no. "You should go talk to them. Get out there, show yourself."

Now it was my turn to shake my head. "I don't want to disturb them."

He groaned. "People won't just come to you, that's not how it works."

"It worked like that for you."

He sighed. "Yeah, when we were little. But you have to be brave and go to them now." He looked at me. "Do I need to help?"

I shook my head no, he'll just force me to be with some group of girls who I don't know. And then he'll leave.

"So you'll do it yourself?"

I nodded. "I'll try."

"Not try, do it."

I nodded again.

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"So will the guys come over tonight?" I ask as we sat down onto the couch, dinner in our hands. Luke has made something easy and quick.

He looked at me. "Nope." And continued eating as a pig.

I chuckled. Finally we would be alone!

We ate dinner and then watched a movie together. Luke would hold me, because it was a horror movie, and I get scared of those.

You'd think it's sweet of him to hold me, but nope. He's holding me because he doesn't want me to leave. Yeah, that's right, I'm forced to watch this.

"See, it's not that creepy." he said, afterwards.

I took the empty sack of chips and soda cans. "Mhm."

"I protected you like a knight." He said, posing as a superhero.

I rolled my eyes. "Sure, if that's what you want to believe."

He chuckled, following me to the kitchen. "I really liked this, just us."

I threw everything away and looked at him, smiling. "Me too, a lot."

He walked to me and hugged me. "I'll always be there for you, you know that, right?"

I hugged him back, tight, and nodded.

He pulled back, but held me face. "Ok?"

I nodded. "Thank you."

"You're my sister, Blair. Of course I'll be there."

After that, we both went to our rooms.

I got in and locked my door, as always. Just to be safe.

I got undressed and ready for bed. I went to lie down and sighed, happily. 

Sure today was a bad day, as always, but I had Luke. And he made my days that tiny bit better. He was like my main support in life. He's all I needed, no one else.

And I'm happy he said those words, because now I felt good. And now I'll sleep good, and be prepared for yet another awful day at school.