Invisible

Chapter 15: Love yourself

Blair's POV

Rachel held my arm. "I want to have a real conversation with you, something's bothering me."

I looked at her. "W-what?"

"Who's that friend of yours?"

I gulped, I didn't know she knew Willow. "You know her?"

"Sit down." she said to which I did.

"You know Willow?"

Rachel looked me deep in the eyes. "Who's this Willow?"

"She's my best friend."

Rachel looked down. "I didn't know you had someone else. I thought you were alone."

I looked from her to the ground. "Well I was."

I felt Rachel's stare on me. "Then where did she come from?"

I shrugged. "No idea."

Rachel made me look at her. "Is she good to you?"

I blinked a few times. I couldn't help but feel like she thought there was something else going on between me and Willow. "Rachel, she's just a friend." I mean come on, we just discussed my feeling for her. I won't fall in love with two people.

"Mhm." Rachel looked down, she seemed to think about it.

"I'm serious." I said to which Rachel looked at me. "We're just good friends. She takes care of me."

"Luke told me before that he once thought someone was in your room, was this Willow?"

I blinked a few times, why did Luke tell her that? "Yeah."

Rachel nodded. "I want to meet her." She stood up. "Now."

I stood up as well, seeing Willow glare at us. She must be pissed off, not exactly the right time to introduce them to each other... "Not now, but I'll tell her."

Rachel nodded. "Ok, let us know when we can."

"Us?"

"Yes, Luke and me." She took her backpack. "We'll talk during lunch, I'll see you later." And she left.

I was watching her, wondering... Were her and Luke...?

"Yep, I think they're dating."

I turned around, seeing Willow smirk at me. "That wouldn't be funny, and you know it."

She nodded. "But come on, she's better off with Luke than with you."

I looked down.

"At least he can offer her something, he'll take good care of her, he'll love her."

I couldn't hold my anger back anymore. "I can do all those thing too!"

Willow wasn't even shocked or taken back by my outburst. She just smirked at me, oh that usual smirk... "Are you serious?"

"Yes, I am! I can do all those things!"

At that she started laughing humorless. "Ok, first of all you can't offer her anything at all, there's nothing in you. You're so boring and bland. Secondly, you can't take care of her, because you can't even take care of yourself. Thirdly, you can't love her because you don't love yourself!" She shouted at the end.

I felt tears in my eyes, I can't believe she'd even say that to me. "I don't need to love myself to love her."

Willow huffed. "To love others, you must first love yourself."

"What?"

Willow looked bored suddenly. She went to sit down. "You have to love yourself first before you're able to love someone else or even start a relationship with someone else."

"What does this have to do with anything we just discussed?" I asked while I sat down next to her.

She looked at me. "You'll never be able to love someone else or be in a relationship with someone for that exact reason."

I blinked a few times before looking away. I loved myself, I know I did. I mean I must because I really liked Rachel.

"And no, I know what you're thinking, but you're wrong."

I looked at her. "I really like Rachel, Willow." I said, I also noticed how annoyed she got from hearing that. "So I love myself."

"Ok," she said, taking my hands in hers. "Would you date yourself? And be honest."

I looked away, would I? I mean I know I'm fine. But... I sighed, looking down.

"My point's proven." She smirked, letting go of my hands.

I got up. "I have to go to class now, we'll talk later."

"Fine."

"By the way, Rachel and Luke want to meet you."

"Not going to happen."

I turned around. "Why not?"

She shrugged, standing up. "Not interested." She started walking away.

"Hey," I said, causing her to turn around. "Don't you have to go to class?"

Willow chuckled before walking away while putting her hand in the air, showing the peace sign. And she was gone.

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And so, during lunch I went to the cafeteria. I looked around, for Rachel. When I spotted her, I was surprised to see her sitting with Luke and his friends.

I slowly made my way towards their table but suddenly got pulled back. I looked up and saw Nick. "Hey Nick." I tried my best to be nice to him, even though I didn't like him at all.

"What are you doing?"

I raised my eyebrows. "Uhm I'm going to Luke and Rachel."

He chuckled. "That's my table."

I really didn't know what else to say to that. "Yes... So can we go?"

He facepalmed himself. "Listen, let me make this clear. I don't want you at my table. No one does."

"W-what? But Luke and Rachel are there."

He nodded. "Yes, they're friends."

"Rachel is your friend?" I was kinda upset to hear that, Rachel was way too good to be his friend.

"Not really, but she's Luke's girlfriend, so..."

At that my eyes widened. "W-what? N-no..."

He smirked, he liked making me feel bad. He certainly succeeded now. "Yes, you didn't know that? Luke finally found someone, a girl who's good for him. Your time's over here, you're nothing but poison in his life. Do yourself a favor and leave."

I fought so hard to keep the tears from falling. He's right, I'm nothing.

"Leave."

I looked at Luke and Rachel, I couldn't believe it. No, Nick's lying. Of course he is, he always want to make me feel bad. I looked at him. "You're lying."

He smirked, it seemed as if he had hoped for me to say that. "Oh really?" He took his phone. "Wait and see." He put his phone back and looked at the table.

I looked too and that's when I saw one of the guys say something to Luke. Luke smiled, nudging him, and leaned closer to Rachel. My heartbeat increased, I was wishing for them not to get too close. But unfortunately, they did. They kissed.

Nick looked at me. "There, now go!" He pushed me, causing me to fall to ground. He, and other students, laughed at me.

That's when Rachel ran to me. "Blair, are you ok?" She knelt next to me. 

I looked up and saw Luke as well. Seeing them together, knowing they've been hiding their relationship from me... I cried.

"Blair, what's wrong?" Luke asked, he wanted to reach out to me but I got up. "Blair, what's wrong?"

I turned around and ran, as fast as I could. I couldn't take this, how could they do this to me? How could they all be so mean to me?