Invisible

Chapter 14: Willow knows best

Blair's POV

"Did you hear me?"

I shook my head.

She chuckled a little. "I said that you can tell me anything, I won't leave you. I'm here for you. I'm - "

I kissed her.

Right then and there.

I couldn't contain myself anymore, I needed her. I liked her so much, and seeing as this kiss feels amazing... It's just confirmation to my heart.

Finally I'm happy, finally someone likes me, finally -

She pulled back, slapping my cheek. She got out of bed. She stood there, breathing heavily. "How could you?!

I sat up, it felt more appropriate. "I... I..."

"You what?!"

I looked down, she was angry at me. She doesn't feel the same way... Realizing that, I felt lonelier than ever.

"Huh what?!"

I gulped, swallowing the tears. "I'm sorry." I said softly. I can't believe I'm saying sorry for liking someone.

"What?!"

I had to say it again? I gulped once again, I was really on the verge of crying. "I'm sorry."

"What for? Kissing me or crushing on me?!" She groaned.

I couldn't hold it anymore, I slowly let the tears flow. "B-both."

She sighed deep.

I sniffled, quietly, I didn't want her to know I was crying.

"I think it's best if I go home."

I kept looking down.

I heard Rachel walk around the room. She was taking her stuff, probably. After some time she stood back in front of me. "We'll talk at school."

I nodded, slowly.

"Ok..." She walked to the door of my room. "Bye."

I looked away. I couldn't say it, I couldn't.

That's when I heard the door close, she was gone.

I looked up, she just left. She promised she wouldn't, she even said so... She lied. She lied about it all.

I laid down, and bursted out in tears. I can't believe this happened... I lost her, just like that.

"What did you expect?"

I sat up. "Willow?" I blinked. "Where were you?"

She huffed.

"I missed you."

"Oh sure, now you're saying that." She folded her arms.

I looked down. "Can we please just hug? I had a terrible moment."

"I know," she said, making her way to my bed. "And I predicted it." She went to lie down, opening her arms for me.

I leaned in, lying in her arms. "I'm sorry."

"What for?"

I sniffled, snuggling closer. "Not listening to you."

"Well at least you're realizing how stupid you were." She kissed my head. "I mean, come on, did you really think she'd like you?"

I looked down, sniffling. "I thought she did. I felt a connection."

"No dear," She caressed my head and back. "She just felt bad for you, and so spent time with you."

I couldn't take it anymore, I started crying again.

"Hey hey," She pulled me closer, kissing my head. "It's ok now, I'm right here."

"I'm so sorry, Willow." I sniffled. I slowly sat up, looking at her. "I should only listen to you, you're the only one who knows how things really are."

She nodded. "I do." She caressed my cheek. "I'll protect you against everyone else."

I nodded.

"But you have to listen to me."

I nodded again. "I will."

"Good." She pulled me down again, caressing my head. She kissed my head again.

I calmed down by her kisses and comfort, it was really relaxing. 

"Get some rest now."

I nodded, closing my eyes. I slowly drifted off to sleep.

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The next day, I was so scared to go to school. It wasn't really school I was afraid of, it was the confrontation with Rachel... And the fact she hates me now...

I walked to my locker, expecting to see her there.

And I was right. 

"Hey." she said as I opened my locker.

"Hi." I said quietly, taking the stuff I needed. I was so scared, so hurt that I didn't even look at her. Not once.

"Listen Blair," She sighed deep. "We need to talk about what happened."

I closed my locker, but kept looking down. Anything but looking at her. "Mhm."

She sighed. "Come on." She took my hand and led me outside. We walked to a bench. She went to sit down. "Sit down."

"I'm fine here." Now that I knew she didn't like me, I didn't want to be too close to her.

"Please."

I sighed and sat down.

"Blair, you're amazing." At that I looked at her. "And I love you as a great friend. I don't want to lose this friendship."

I slowly nodded.

"I'm sorry, but I don't feel the same way. I admit that I shouldn't have hit you when you kissed me. It was a dumb move and I apologize."

I nodded. "I was stupid for kissing you, I thought you felt the same way."

"No," she said, caressing my cheek. "You had the courage to act on your feelings." She smiled. "Most people can't do that, they're too scared. You're a brave girl."

I slowly smiled. "Thanks."

She smiled as well. "Can we try this again?"

I looked at her. "We can."

She smiled and pulled me in for a hug. "I'm so happy for that, I didn't want to lose you."

"Me either." I said as I held on tight to her.

We hugged for quite a while until I felt someone's stare on me. I opened my eyes and saw Willow, a few feet away. She was shaking her head, she seemed disappointed.

I let go of Rachel. "We'll talk later, ok?" I said and got up.

But Rachel held my arm. "I want to have a real conversation with you, something's bothering me."

I looked at her. "W-what?"

"Who's that friend of yours?"