Supernatural in Real Life 5

Chapter 28

A/N Short chapter oops
I'm curled up on my bed next to Lucifer, his arm around my shoulders. It's late, and I'm sure I'll be asleep within an hour, likely less. Until then, my tired mind is still working, though perhaps not as well as it would during the day. An idea comes to me, and I decide to ask about it.
"Lucifer?" I say softly, glancing up at him without moving my head.
"Hm?"
"Soulmates aren't about love, right? Just a kid?"
"That's right..." Lucifer replies.
"Then could Gabriel and I just try for a kid, and then the — the soulmate bond would break and I would still be with you?"
Lucifer sighs softly. "I wish it was that easy."
"Why isn't it?" I ask.
"It just doesn't work that way," Lucifer tells me. "It's the whole destiny thing. He never should have told us about that. It'll happen how it happens, and that's it."
"But I don't want to be with Gabriel," I protest. "I want to be with you. I love you."
"I love you, too," Lucifer replies. "But this isn't something you can avoid. Maybe it'll just be a drunk hookup or something. Gabriel does that a lot."
"Has he ever gotten anyone pregnant before?" I ask curiously.
"No, a human can't..." Lucifer trails off.
I look up at him, waiting for him to finish, and notice a puzzled expression on his face.
"What?" I ask.
"Humans can't have an angel's child," Lucifer tells me slowly.
I vaguely remember him telling me that when I was pregnant with his. Back then, I had Janus' power. I was, according to him, practically a demigod. I'm human now, though, which creates an issue here.
"So how am I going to have a kid with Gabriel?"
"I don't know," Lucifer admits. "Maybe... I don't know. But I do know that humans and angels can't have kids. There's no exception to that. As long as you're human, you can't."
"Could I be not human again?" I ask, not wanting it to happen but questioning the possibility.
"It would take a lot," Lucifer tells me. "Unless you're more not human than human, it won't happen. And I mean a lot more. Like, barely recognizable as human. Hell, I'm surprised Janus' power was enough, honestly."
"Then God was wrong. I'm not having another kid. Gabriel and I aren't soulmates after all."
"Maybe," Lucifer allows. "I can't see him making a mistake, but maybe you're right."
"Let's just assume I am," I reply, snuggling up to Lucifer again. "I don't want to think about the possibility of losing this."

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I wake up alone in my bed. I sit up slowly, wiping the sleep from my eyes. There's a small piece of paper on the table next to my bed, so I pick it up to see a note scrawled across it in large, loopy handwriting.
Michael needed me. I'll be back soon.
— Lucifer
This makes me smile slightly. I like seeing those two getting along. I can't help but remember when I first got here, when Lucifer had no one. Now, it seems he is Michael's best friend.
I roll out of bed and attempt to smooth my hair out from a long night in bed. Eventually, I give up and just put it in a ponytail, glad I've been doing sports for so long because I'm practically an expert at shoving my mess of a head of hair into an elastic. I walk out into the living room, stifling a yawn.
The only one out here is Gabriel, who is playing something with a deck of cards on the floor. He looks up when I enter the room, then quickly averts his eyes. I don't blame him. As soon as I walked out here, it became awkward. I wish I could just sneak away, but it's too late. He's already noticed me. I might as well try to make things seem somewhat normal, since I can't get away.
"Hi," I break the silence awkwardly.
"Hi," he replies awkwardly. Is there any point in saying it's awkward anymore? Everything is awkward.
"What are you playing?" I ask politely (and awkwardly, but there's no point in adding that.)
"Solitaire," Gabriel replies without looking up again.
"Cool."
And cue awkward silence.
"I forgot to do... Something..." I lie. "So I'm gonna... Go... Do that... Now."
I quickly walk away and back into my room, flopping down on my bed. I hate this. I hate the whole idea of this. I hate not being able to talk to Gabriel, I hate not knowing what will happen with me and Lucifer, and I just hate everything right now.