My Peace and Serenity (A Jeff The Killer Story)

Chapter 24

I sang merrily as I washed the dishes before me, music blaring from the tv speaker, the only crisp clean machine in the house.
I wiggled my hips and scrubbed at the newly operable sink--all thanks to my nagging Jeff to fix it-- and was mentally high-fiving myself for bringing a few CD's from home.

With my hair pinned up and some comfort clothes hugging my thin body, it was looking to be a good day.
Jeff had gone out for a while and I was left to do whatever. So, i just glided to the music and sang along to the tune.
After a while I was getting deeper into the medley, I put my hand up and was dancing around the counter top, feeling like a teenager after a stressful few weeks.

All of the tension was melting away. I started sidestepping to the beat and grabbed a spoon to use a microphone, my volume increasing and my movements becoming more dramatic. I decided to kick it up another notch with a turn, but as I did so, I saw none other than Jeff leaning against the counter top smiling like an idiot.

I screamed and slipped on the tile, busting my butt on the floor and groaning, causing Jeff to double over in a fit of laughter. He paused the stereo and peered over the counter.

"Don't stop now, you have an eager audience" he smiled.

I quickly composed myself in embarrassment and turned off the sink.
"Shut up! I didn't hear you come in."

He chuckled and looked down at his hands.
"So listen," Jeff started, "I was thinking about some thing"

Pursing my lips, I waited impatiently for his response. Ever since last night I can feel the light tension between us.
I can still taste the thick are that was between us if I think about it enough. Our top lips brushed against each other yet neither of us were brave enough to bridge the gap keeping us apart.
Was Jeff about to bring it up?

"I've been thinking about it for a while, but I wasn't sure if you were ready...or...if I was ready"

I nodded, urging him to continue.

"And, although it's a big change, I'm taking a leap of faith-"

"Just get to the point" I blurt.

He flushed and rubs the back of his neck.
"I want to start training you"

There was both relief and disappointment in my heart.
"O-Oh"

"It's just that, I met with Jack again this morning, and he brought up some good points. Basically, no matter what you choose when it comes to your arm, it's good to have some training to strengthen your body and mind."
   He looked concerned, like he doubted I could do it but was willing anyway. I wasn't sure if he had total faith in me or not.

"Look, I'm open to training and all of that but I'm still not sure I can do everything you say I can. I can't just kill someone, whether he's done bad things or not!" I breathe, my voice raised but not to much of a yell. I really dont feel like fighting today.

Jeff stands up and walks over to me, jumping up and sitting himself on the counter top.
"I know, and I'm not exactly sure how to convince you that you can. No matter what anyone tells you, unless you actually see what He does, you'll never be able to kill him on your own. But, you have to get warmed up to the idea. Regardless, the time will come when you have to do it."

Reaching for my hand, I turn my head and walk away.
"That's just...not how people work"

"Yea it is. Just let your Soul take over. Thats something I usually dont recommend, but-"

"But nothing! I'm not murdering people! You can't make me" I interrupt, reliving the feel of Alice's blood on my hands and the gut wrenching numbness that follows.
It's a different feeling you can't describe--The feeling that you hurt someone. You feel on a different level, like youre above everyone, but...youre alone.