After all this time? JILY

Chapter 26: Goodbye

As we are raising harry me and James both decide it is too risky to work, that and Dumbledore is making us go into hiding. We put a spell over our house, but only a month after we are in hiding James's parents get in a car crash. His dad died instantly but His mum is in a comatose state for a few days before she dies. The car crash was no accident either. It was a attack trying to get to me James and Harry. While I went to their funeral Dumbledore watched over Harry. It wasn't fair. I wanted to give up, but Harry made me stay put. I've been through so much pain, but I need to go through more for some stupid reason. Every morning I feel the sadness dawning on me, so many people I have loved have died or are fighting now to stop Voldemort. The days get worse. It is almost mine and James anniversary to when we started dating. Harry has just become a year old. Sirius spoils him so much. It drives both James and I crazy staying home. We do it for Harry, we will do anything for him. One night me and him put Harry to bed early so we can have some time for us.

"Lily, I know it's hard lately, but I can see you slipping. I know you're struggling with staying home but we can do it. As long as we can stay a family it is enough for me." I look over to James. "No matter how hard it is we can do it. Hell were the Potters we can do anything. I love you Lily, I can't lose you. Don't give up. If they find us then I will protect you as much as I can. I will give you the most pain free life I can." I go and sit next to James. I snuggle into him.

"I love you too James. A world without you is the most meaningless thing ever." We stay like that all night and wake up to Peter coming.

"Good morning James, hello Lily." I nod my head then go to Harry's room. I Peter seems to be different. He never seemed to be a great person in the beginning but now he seems to get worse than before. I don't trust him, but James does so I don't say anything.In a couple of days will be Halloween. Sirius is going to try and come over. He is over as much as he can be, sadly its not often anymore. I take Harry into the front room where James and Peter are. When I walk in there is Sirius and Remus too.

"Hey Lils it's been a while." Remus looks terrible. More scars, less smiles. Sirius is standing with him, also more scars but he can't stop smiling.

"Uncle Moony! Uncle Padfoot!" I put Harry down and he crawls over to them. He is all smiles.

"It's been a while." I say, I hold all my tears in. "I have news. I found out a few days ago but, I think I'm pregnant again. James that's why I've been distant lately. I don't want to bring a child into this word without this war stopping. I feel guilty." I tear slides down my face. I turn away from James's surprised face.

"Lily, how long have you known?"

"A month or so."

"You should have told me." I know he is right. I don't know what to tell him. I did it for him. I seem to have hurt him though. I suddenly feel angry. I turn around to see the look on his face.

"James I know you don't think this was right but I know what I was doing. Stop looking at me like that."

"Lily, you never told me that we are going to have another child. How can I not be upset?" James is yelling.

"I did it for you! I was hoping I was wrong, I wouldn't have another child, but it is all too true now!"

"Are you really scared I will be upset to have another child?" He is no longer yelling. He got so quiet, I can hear the sadness in his voice.

"I'm going to go for a walk." Before anyone can react I am out the door. I start running and don't look back. I hurt everyone there. I am so disappointed in myself. I run for ever.I only stop when I reach some woods. I hear James calling to me, along with Sirius and Peter. Harry must be with James. I run into the woods. I run as fast as I can, that is until I run into someone. We both crash to the ground.