Newt imagines 2

13 reasons why

Newt sat on her bed soothing the sheets down, the bed had recently been made by one of the sloppers. Thomas stood in the doorway and just watched, his head hung low, he wanted to be their for his mate.
"She never made her bed, no matter how many times they nagged her to do it." Newt whispers his voice trembling, a tear rolls out the corner of his eye.
Thomas steps into the room and sits on the floor leaning against the bed. "Yeah, and she never cleaned her trainers, drove Minho mad."
Newt gets up and kneels by her box of stuff, it was all going to just sit in their. He opens it up and takes out her diary, he flicks through to the last page and a letter of paper falls out.
"What's that?" Thomas ask leaning forwards.
"I don't know." Newt says opening the letter. "It's not addressed to anyone."

I know everyone says suicide is selfish and I read it in all the books, but why can't I finally think about me. Everyone else has been selfish enough, now it's my turn. Here are the 13 reasons that drove me to my never ending solution to my life.

My first reason is Gally, that big 'defender' of the glade with the eyebrows. Since day one you always assumed the worst of me, thought I was reason behind all of this.
-flashback-
I stand in the line for food, I can feel all eyes on me, staring me down. Of coarse they were, they hadn't seen a girl before. I couldn't be that fascinating. I gulp and get my food, as soon as I turn around a large guy towers above me, I shrink into nothing. "This is all your fault!" He flips my plate pouring food all down my top, the stew soaked through my top burning my skin. "And I bet you are going to destroy this place. I bet your whole innocent look is hiding the twisted monster inside of you. I will be watching you."
He storms off and everyone is laughing. It was my first day, I just got out the box. I don't understand. I ran away, tears welling up in my eyes and ate nothing that night or for breakfast.
-end of flashback-

Newt folds up the letter and shakes his head tears are now freely flowing. "Tommy look at this."
He hands Thomas the letter who reads it.
"Read out the rest." Newt asks.

I tried to be your friend Gally. But you could never stop, you were always watching, my first day in the maze when I returned you were standing there staring. You expected the worst of me constantly. It especially made it hard when you started telling the greenies about the dangerous person I was.

-flashback-
It was a greenies bonfire night. I had been in the glade for six months now.

I sit and laugh with my friends, Thomas, Ben, Minho and Newt. They had too much to drink and it was hilarious, I was in so much pain from laughing.
When the greenie came over, he was probably a year older than me, taller than me and he was stronger than me. Every boy was.
He was fuming, hands balled into fist and bright red. He kicked me over and kicked again. I screamed in agony, it was so painful, my ribs were burning.
"Give me back my family! Give me back my memories." He yelled kicking me again.
I rolled over scrunching up into a ball, crying. I looked up, the greenie was pinned back by my friends, comforting arms wrapped around my shoulders. The greenie legged it over to Gally hiding behind him for protection. Gally's face was gleaming in his victory, slowly but surely he was going to turn everyone against me.
- end of flashback -

Newt and Thomas sit in silence, both regretting that night. Minho walks in slouching down, he looks at his mates faces. "What is it?"
Thomas hands him the letter, his hands shake whilst he reads it. "No, no." He mutters.
Newt just curls up and cries. "Read the last paragraph." Thomas slings an arm around Newt's shoulders and sobs on his own arm.

Gally, I have learnt and grown to love the glade and the gladers like you, I would lay down my life to protect most of them. Therefore I forgave you but I can never forgive the greenies you made, you taught to hate me.

My next message can be found at the place I would go to find my best friend if I needed him. This was the place I spent my days off running.

"Is that you?" Minho asks Newt. "I mean her best friend?"
He nods. "Yeah, she worked in the gardens once a week with me." He gets up. Thomas jumping up at his side.
"Let's go." Thomas says set on a mission.
Newt's last to leave he pauses in the doorway, expecting to see her, he almost does. Sat on the end of her bed smiling cheerfully. Then he looks again and the room is bare, soon another greenie will move in and it will be like see never existed.

They get outside and head towards the garden, their half way there when they see Gally and a bunch of his builder mates sitting on the grass, gently messing about. Newt scrunches up face in pure hatred.
"Newt." Thomas grabs his arm and shakes his head. "He's not worth it."
"He did this to her." Newt growls.
"And so did 12 other reasons."Thomas shakes Newt arm. "Let's find the other letters Newt then deal with him."
"Or just do it now." Minho says.

Newt storms off towards Gally. "Gally!" He yells across the glade.
Gally rolls his eyes and turns to face Newt. "What slinthead?"
"Get to your bloody feet when I talk to you! You little piece of shit." Newt yells even louder and shoves Gally over as soon as he gets to his feet. "You did this to her! You were horrible to her and that drove her to this." Hot tears pour down his face.
Gally shoves Newt back. "Me? Newt your supposed to be her best friend, how did you not notice this happening? You spent every moment with her. How did you not see her falling apart?! Eh, eh Newt!"
Newt stares gob smacked, he couldn't think of a come back. Minho punched Gally square in the jaw. "Don't you dare blame Newt. He hasn't done anything wrong! You! You were a bully from day one because she was different." He then grabs Newt's arm and drags him off. "That felt so good." Minho whispered in his ear. Making Newt actually laugh, like he used to all the time when she was around, then it was over and it was back to the never ending pit in his stomach.