Should've Held Onto You (CHA EUNWOO)

16 - Truth

"Truth or dare?" MJ smirked at his dongsaeng.

Dongmin sighed. Despite the many times he made it clear that he disliked this game, he still played along. I think secretly he enjoys having all his friends together and in a positive mood, so he'll put up with it. "Dare."

MJ evilly rubbed his hands together. "Alright. I dare you to go ask Miyeong's mom for a tampon."

"Why in the world would I do that?" Dongmin asked, unimpressed, but the others were laughing. Even I cracked a smile.

"Go, go, go!"

"Whatever."

I suppose you can imagine it. We all stuck our heads out from behind the wall, leaning over one another to watch Dongmin ask my mother for a tampon in the living room.

"Erm.. Mrs. Park?" He seemed nervous now that he was actually faced with the situation. Ha! Who's the unfazed one now?

"Yes, Dongmin dear?"

"May I.. have a.." He trailed off, the words quieting.

"Have what?"

What made it worse was my father sitting beside her, looking at him expectantly. The rest of the group tried hard to not laugh, and I saw Sumi biting her own hand to stifle her laughter.

"A tampon."

Silence.

Laughter. But not from us, from my mom. "Is Miyeong on her period?"

Dongmin's cheeks flushed instantly, eyes widening. "Uh.. I- um-"

"Mom!" I scolded, looking at her from behind the wall. This dare had backfired- now I was the embarrassed one. Yet, Dongmin was still red as he laughed and walked back to us, my parents shaking their heads amusedly. With a sigh at the laughter of my friends, I sulked back to my room, wondering where I went wrong.

Eventually, it was Sanha's turn.

"Sumi noona! Truth or dare?"

"I'll go truth this time," Sumi smiled, sitting back with her arms supporting her.

Sanha giggled, "Do you likeee anyone in this circle? Like... likeee like?" I rolled my eyes at Sanha's childish question, yet Sumi still blushed slightly.

"Yes."

"Who?! Oh my god!" Sanha flared wildly, hitting Minhyuk's arm while squeaking. Minhyuk looked at him like he was insane.

Sumi shook her head. "Only one question at a time."

At this, Sanha frowned and his shoulders slumped.

"Dongmin, truth or dare? Dare? Great!" Sumi clapped her hands once, choosing for him before he could get a word out.

"Alright, I guess I'm choosing dare."

"I dare you to kiss Miyeong."

What? Did you hear that? That was my world falling apart. Let me be clear: I had feelings for Dongmin two years ago. Feelings don't just come back up like that. As familiar as we are with one another, it's like meeting for the first time. At least, for me it was. I hated how he still made my heart race sometimes though. Back to the point- Dongmin can't kiss me! As much as I'd like to believe Sumi was doing this because she thought I "wanted" it, I can't help but think she's doing it to tell Bin that I'm not interested, and that he should be with her.

Dongmin had a serious expression on his face as the others "oooo"ed and Bin looked anywhere but at us. "I don't think that'd be approp-"

"Dongmin! It's a dare! And you're all out of chickens, what, after you wasted the last one because you refused to post online that you were pregnant." Despite the tension that accompanied the dare, I snickered as Sumi spoke.

For a moment, in the midst of everyone talking, Dongmin's eyes met mine, as if he was asking for something. Permission. But what could I say or do? I didn't know what I wanted. This was moving too quickly. I'd never had my first kiss! God, I'd never even been courted. Back then, it was just, "I like you." "Really? I like you too." "Cool." "..Yeah."

I was too busy thinking to notice him leaning in, and I only realized when I felt his soft lips on my cheek, which quickly reddened. I saw Sumi playfully glare as he completed the dare, but not the way she had intended. The others threw a fit, and JinJin "awww"ed. Bin looked a little relieved, but not exactly happy. I felt bad.

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I was the sucker coerced into going on a drink run. MJ, Sumi, and I all wanted Coke. Sanha wanted Ski. Bin and Minhyuk wanted Rootbeer, and JinJin and Dongmin wanted Dr. Pepper. I was just about to pick up all the cans, trying to balance them in my arms, when someone walked down the stairs and into the kitchen.

"Oh, hi," I grinned at Bin, and he gave a shy smile back. He was an attractive guy, I'll admit. He reminded me of a cat, he was so cute!

"Hi," He opened his soda, taking a swig of it, sitting at the island, across from where I stood, leaning forward onto it.

I followed suite, opening my own soda.

"Would you have really let Eunwoo kiss you?" Well at least he's straight to the point I guess. "Do you still like him? After all those years of never even seeing each other?"

Do you still like me? After all those years of never seeing me, Bin?

But I shook my head, keeping those thoughts to myself. I wasn't even sure it was me that Sumi was talking about. "No." His shoulders relaxed, and I grinned, refraining from chuckling. "I just got back. Feelings are feelings, and I've known you all my entire life, but.. I have to re-get to know you. We've all changed. I left at a time where we all began to branch off a little and figure out who we were. I can't just come back and feel the same way I did two years ago. So no. I wouldn't have let Dongmin kiss me."

He cleared his throat, standing at the bottom of the staircase. "I came to see if you needed help with the cans..." His face showed no emotion, and for a while, I was worried I had hurt his feelings, as he definitely heard me. But he smiled, and any trace of being sad that there was, was gone in a flash. "They've all decided on the movie we're watching."

Dongmin walked over, grabbing three cans. I grabbed two more as well as my own, and Bin grabbed the last one and his own, and we headed upstairs.

But I still felt bad, because Dongmin's eyes didn't convey the same emotions he insisted he was feeling.

I've only been here a week. What have I gotten myself into?

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A/N- "I've only been here a week. What have I gotten myself into?" Actually me when I discovered Astro~