Minizerk One-shots

I wish I could tell you part 2

I wish I could tell you how I feel. I wish that I never fell for you. I wish we could be together. I wish this won't tore us apart forever. I wish I could turn you gay, although I said during a recording session,  turning you gay would be worse than turning you sideways. That was a lie, but I would never lie to you.
I can't do it. You are beautiful. I'm not.
You are straight. I'm not.
Not anymore.

(Enough with this sappy shit lets get started 😂)

Simon's P.O.V

Josh has beeen acting strangely since last week when I asked him about photography. He started to avoid me, at least that's what I think. Whenever I meet him somewhere in the house,  he always has something to do urgently. He doesn't want to talk to me at night either. I miss those little converstations that we used to have around 2 am, almost every day.

Today he can't avoid me. We're gonna record some football videos and he has to come with us. He promised Tobi that he will.

I want to ask him why is he like this. He talks to the others. Still acting like there's nothing wrong with him during recordings. Maybe he just hates me because I brought up Freya. Today I 'll ask him what's up with him that's for sure.

Josh's POV

I tried to avoid him. I really did, but I miss him so much. Today's football won't help me either.

~

" Guys we have to leave soon, if we don't want to be late!" Vikk shouted from downstairs.

" I'm coming." As I said I opened my door coming face to face with a flustered Simon.

We go down the stairs shoulders bumping into each other. No words are being spoken.

" Can we go?" Asks the small boy in front of us.

We both nod. Vikk raises an eyebrow but doesn't say anything.

~
Finally we arrived at Soccerdome (idk deal with it) the other guys aren't there yet. The whole car drive was silent. I think Vikk noticed the tension between me and Simon. He keeps giving us side-glances.

" Hi guys"

" Hey" Simon and I say in unison. We both look at each other but still no words come out.

" Hi Ethan. Where's Tobi?"

" He forgot something in his car. He'll be here in a minute.

After Tobi arrived we decided to make a video for Ethan's channel first.
He came up with a very intresting idea. He called it the ' Two feet one ball challenge'.

" Guys we need pairs for this one."

" Why?" I asked.

"Because two feet means one foot from someone and another foot from someone else is sellotaped together, and that's how we will try to score penalties. Its simple."

" But there's only five people here." Said Tobi.

" Do we need a goalie?" Asked Simon.

" Yeah I guess." Behz didn't think this through as I can see.

" I can be the goalie." Said Tobi.

" So who's with who?" Simon looked at me when I asked it.

" I want to be with you." He stated with a poker face.

" Okay then me and Vikk.  Its settled. Lets get started boys. Ethan clapped his hands, then brought us sellotape.

" We will do the intro then I think you two should start the challenge.

" Alright."

~

" This is not a good idea." There was a big risk in this one. We can fall easily and end up on top of each other.

" Why not? "Asked the boy who was being sellotaped to me by Vikk at the moment."  Oh yeah I remember know.   Because you hate me that's why."

" What'd you mean? "

Oh fuck.

" Don't try to deny it."

" Guys stop this. I don't know what happened between you two, but for the sake of these videos... Calm down. Put on that mask that you always do when you don't feel like recording."

Vikk was right we shouldn't be fighting. Not now. Not becuse of a pity thing like this.

~
We recorded altogether five videos. Simon and I somehow managed to act like nothing has happened.

Before we left Tobi took me aside to talk.

" I don't know what happened, man. But please talk it out. You two have the best bond of our group. You can't let him slip away Josh."

" I'll talk to him I promise."

" That's what I like to hear. Now come here!" He pulled me into a hug then we said our goodbyes.

~

Back in the house Vikk left us alone. I was about to go up to my room when Simon decided to talk to me.

" What is wrong with you? No..what is wrong with us? Why don't we talk anymore? Why are you avoiding me?"

" I'm not avoiding you..."

" Josh, stop with this bullshit please."

" Do you really want to know why?"

" Of course I do!!! Just tell me what's wrong damn it!"

R. I. P. our friendship.

" Because I realised something about you."

" What, that you hate me? My personality? My face? What dou you hate about me Josh?! Come on tell me!!"

" If you wold let me finish I would tell you!" We were both shouting by this point.

He looked at me, face red from anger. He opened his mouth to speak but soon closed it.

"Do you know what I hate about you?" He nodded. " That you are so fucking stubborn. You can't believe that I don't hate you at all. Don't believe it then. Why am I avoiding you? Good question.  Maybe,  just maybe because I developed some feelings towards you that I shouldn't have... About a week ago when I wanted to ask you something but got interrupted, do you know what I wanted to ask you?" He looked down shaking his head. " I wanted to ask you if you will go on a date with me. I know I'm stupid. I picked up all my courage to ask you out but I couldn't.  When you came back I just couldn't do it. I pussied out, because I didn't want to ruin this between us. I started avoiding you, cause I thought these feelings would go away, but they didn't. Just tell me you don't hate me. This won't effect our friendship at all."

He looked up. Tears were streaming down his cheeks.

" I'm so sorry Si. I shouldn't have told you this. I shouldn't have yelled at you." I carressed his cheek with my left hand wiping the tears away.

" Its no-not that" He said between sobs. " I shouldn't have yelled at you. I- I  would love to go on a date with you. " He smiled at me with his dimples showing.

" Really?"

" Yeah. I felt kind of dissappointed when you asked me something else  instead."

" Simon Minter, will you go out on a date with me?"

" Yes! A houndred times yes!"

I'm glad I told you.